I am aware that ascension is an inner experience and that it is a choice. No, it is more than a choice. It is a choice followed by the action of the raising of ones vibrations. When i first heard about ascension i figured i wanted to take part. When i learned more about it i was unsure and didn't know if i was ready for such a change. For a long time i didn't know whether i wanted to stay in the 3rd density or expand into other density's. Either way i knew that I have a dharma, a purpose for humanity. I feel deeply that i am to use my art, writing, to share spiritual knowledge with the masses through books, songs, and other programs. I feel i can help guide many people on there path out of the dark valley. (Spiritual death)
Lately i have really been feeling the symptoms associated with ascension. The aches, the feeling of lightness, clicks in my ears, pain in my head, strange things happening with my eye sight, detoxification of my body, throat clogging, greater need of hydration, my emotions are going crazy, and change of diet. The consequence's of my choices are much more apparent to me now and i'm seeing more and more how my thoughts are manifested in my reality. I know that a person on the path to ascension is going to have have to have very much discipline and learn many lesson on the way and so will I. I know that ascension is for everyone but not all at once everyone will have there own time but I still struggle with this : All i know is this physical reality. I know of other dimension and realities but have not experienced these in any way. Physical reality has it's ups and downs but I choose to see it as glorious and fun, and so it is. I know that i can make my reality here has perfect as i want, and live the rest of my days out in this density in pretty much pure joy and contentment.
So, knowing this, i am having trouble deciding if i want to stay or go. Even though i know that there are much greater, much more perfect things in the higher densities. I guess you could say i'm afraid of not knowing what is on the other side and of the path there. Letting go of everything i pretty much everything i have ever known scares my mind. My main reason for creating this blog was to ask "Is there some sort of time frame we have for mass ascencion? Is 2012 the deadline before you have to wait for the next chance?(or just do it your self by raising your vibes). I really dont want to wait until my next incarnation before ascending (even though it wont seem like a wait). I guess what i'm saying is that i wish to enjoy physical reality at least a little longer before the big change. What do you think?