Since I was a child I have been in love with love. Always searching for my mate. I even had my first crush in 1st grade. I always loved the stories of Romeo and Juliet, stories of first loves and true loves--stories that fueled my passion for finding that one true love. Growing up in my parents' broken relationships showed me what not to look for and what not to accept. They didn't know what real love was, but I did! And so I was on my search.
As I looked back on all my relationships I realized that they were all necessary for myself to learn, to gain knowledge and wisdom. Not just about having a loving relationship but also to learn about myself. To understand that we come together to learn from each other, and when the lessons are learned we may part ways. But why was I always the one who made the parting?
It is through my spirituality that I have learned the difference between soul mates and twin flames. I have been with many soul mates (all part of one's family), but it was always my twin flame I was searching for.
So maybe with my new perceptions, the openings of my heart, the ascension of my being, I can understand this life-long search and longing. Maybe I can find some answers to these recurring dreams that I have of my old friend where we share a most pure love, a divine heart connection that I have never felt here before. And if I dream of him...does he dream of me?
Or maybe my twin has not incarnated. Maybe that would answer my question I have about another dream I had several years ago. I dreamed of a man with long dark curly hair. He had a glowing green aura, maybe even green skin. Very Faery-like. He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen. We were Beloveds. But he had to leave, saying he promised to come back for me. This dream was so vivd, so real...and I woke up feeling separated and broken-hearted.
Whatever the plan and circumstances we chose, I look forward to the reunion of my Divine Counterpart, basking in that love that I have always longed for, that I have missed in this world, helping to bring more love to the Earth and Her inhabitants. But until that divine timing I love and cherish my beautiful blessed life as it is now.