Just Relax's blog

I feel on the verge of a big breakthrough but also frustrated because i sometimes feel like I have not been able to muster the energy or courage to truly let go of judgement and be true to how i really feel inside sometimes and what I really need beyond my sometimes censoring mind.

it feels to me like alot of where I am at now concerns loving myself regardless of what my mind is saying and needing to hold onto - in each moment I can sometimes see how my mind grapples with something to hang onto rather than simply being and constantly letting go and feeling the moment, my tendancy has been to make myself wrong when i forget something rather than simply coming into the here and now and i feel it has something to do with welcoming the unknown - at all costs - maybe this is a shift i am going through as this old conditioned pattern of feeling all wrong and thus going to a certain point and then going dead is released and i become simply accepting and who i am.