April 26, 2011
Earlier today, I felt offended by one very vague statement about my fashion line. I know it's weird but it is true. The person was just asking about other online fashion shops except us and I already took it in a wrong way. I got all defensive all of a sudden.
That is indeed very stupid.
I have realized that I tend to start to destroy myself whenever things do not go my way. I punish myself because I am not good enough or look the other way about things completely. I will start to focus on only the negative things about me (see? not even the fashion line!) and say how bad I am and how I will never be liked by everyone or anyone... that I am never safe.
I wonder where it came from though? One thing is for sure, I DESERVE BETTER. DEFINITELY.
So I completely brushed it off and thought of myself... what I just did is stupid and that is definitely NOT ME.
That is why i feel connectd to Ms. Sharon's Angel Wisdom for the day. I am extra sensitive. Maybe I am getting it from someone. I looked behind me and my sister was there. She is actually undergoing some harsh changes right now and I think that she is punishing herself for it, even though she does not deserve it.
Also, I have just read a wonderful blog here about our emotions not being us. That is true... our emotions is just a pinch of our entirety... even less! So I should forgive myself for acting like that... it's not mine. I just got it from someone.
The real me would have even helped the person find other fashion lines than ours. Lol.
Just some sharing.