I just wanted to send you an abundance of LOVE and GRATITUDE to all of you --and especially noting all who have lately posted on my mail page-- I have to say I was super-stressed out this morning for various 3rd density reasons-- Umm-- like its tax time and it is so stressful to have to deal with this--
Your messages are so well timed --and I felt like a huge weight was lifted from me when I read them--
THANK-YOU and LOVE to you ALL!!
I have been working on releasing my shyness and OK-- all out FEAR of getting close to others-- I have had this fear all my life for obvious trust reasons-- and just really being comfy in my protective bubble--Don't get me wrong-- I am Service to OTHERS-- I LOVE to give and I do so without regret and to be totally honest Giving just feels so GOOD!!
I always receive and feel i am pretty balanced in this- ( giving & receiving) - I admit I have not always been-- as i have been stuck in the old programs of martrydom being the way-- not so no more!!
I am still really working hard on intimacy and keeping friendships-- I have friends but I am not a participator-- I like solitude and my space and I am introvert-- BUT Lately- I have been getting the push to get out my old comfortable patterns and start making-- and OK-- KEEPING friendships-- its hard!!
I am at a loss as to HOW to do this-- No really ,it sounds crazy BUT I actually see nothing when I try and think of ways to be a friend to someone-- I am not a great conversationalist-- at all-- so I get all panicky and start feeling stressed out in group and social situations--
I am learning to LOVE & ACCEPT EMBRACE and SURRENDER to all of this within me-- and it is starting to help-- but it is for me-- one of the hardest things I have ever done--
Thank you ALL-- you have so helped me in this new endeavour--you ALL --FEEL in my heart-- like the truest of purest of souls and I TRUST you!!
Huge for me-- no small feat--LOL!! Thank you again-- S