Another moment of pure experience washes over me. I feel the simple vibrations of the piano in the background, my girlfriend toiling away to perfect a piece for an upcoming performance. I felt the pull to let loose my mind once more. It occurred to me that even 6 months ago this would have had something to make it feel...not good.
I would have found something in my mind still needing to be addressed and focused on it until my mood was ruined. I thought this was beyond my control. Its not. I sit here peacefully loving the sun and watching my two cats cuddle fight. Its adorable. My mood gets that much better.
This moment. Is a moment that could never happen in exactly the same way. This moment tells me everything I need to know for the next moment. The only way for me to be prepared that I have discovered so far is just to be in THIS MOMENT. Its all around you. Feel out.
There are things you can feel when your mind is quiet that teach you so much about yourself. There are people you have forgotten for no other reason then when you last talked to them things never resolved. These are all tests you skipped or ignored. And that's ok.
You weren't ready for them when they popped up to so you decided to wait. Now you are ready. Lets go back through them and see why you were angry or hurt, wounded, betrayed. These are all things that you can find peace through. It just takes a trust in yourself.