got an email saying Naveen had left another beautiful message on my guest book, thanks.. it pulls me back when I am away for long periods.. I last posted of Freddy's death. he was one of my special needs cats and needed 24/7 nursing care, but boy did I love him deeply, like a gold circle was around us when i would hold his little fragile body in my arms at night and heal him 'til he slept... I was crazy for a week but I have really good healer friends...and some are Hindu..somehow, they got through to me..and I realised that though he is not in a physical state any longer, the love is not gone.. thankfully the process was magically hastened... His 'atman' just changed form... Then Molly, my other special needs cat died... she had been ill for a very long time and everything was tried.. homeopathy, allopathy, vibrational medicine, genome therapy..some of the best world healers worked on her case, but she dies, not 2 weeks after Freddy...3 days later neighbours cut down trees in a piece of land I own, was inadequate in my response and too cut up to deal properly with legal stuff, it has been really hard going..Trees are very important to me and I swear I heard one screaming as te digger knocked her down..still trying to get legal stuff sorted out// its a nightmare cos have no head for it.. veering dangerously between severe stress and disassociation.. grief and something else. feelin like a load of really heavy stuff has been dumped upon me.. that I should be handling it with more poise, less effort...frantically trying to find a perspective...did not sleep for almost a week, diggers going night and day... doors closing on my face...frustration at every remedial action and thought I have...its stormy as hell..my babies are in heaven..I almost believe this...really.
Theres always a lot to do here with the animals...they are really lovely but I fear for their safety and protection..I just love them way too much..