Its been hitting me like a ton of bricks past couple weeks!!! I've been feeling the energy more intensly these past couple years, but couldn't really put my finger on it to call it God (I know). Just thought I'd share my path a bit as it is accelerating big time recently. Eleven years ago, a client at the college counseling center where I was working gave me a little book called God Calling, by AJ Russell (I list it on my profile page) out of the blue. I've since left that job and the book had been on the shelf in my current office since the move. Its a daily guide.
Three years ago I was "led" to walk next door at my office to the bookshelf and my hand went right to this book. I brought it home, started reading it....it was pretty mechanical back then, in fact I would zoom through not only that day's entry, but I would read that day's entry for every month, winding up reading twelve entries in about as many minutes. "I" was doing it "my" way, lol. Next year I was reading with more depth, one entry per day only but still a bit rapidly. This past year, it's been taking me 1/2 an hour or more most days to get through the entry as so much good stuff is stirred up in me when I study it.
Here's a crazy woohoo for ya! One of my former patients was in AA for over 20 years. He came in to work on a significant anxiety problem. In the course of one of our sessions, I mentioned something briefly about the days entry from the God Calling book (this books been in print since the 1920's!!!!). J kind of looked at me a bit oddly, but then we went on to other matters. He came back the following week to inform me that his AA daily guide which has two entries for each day, one AA oriented and the second, spiritually oriented, but that the second entry was THE SAME ONE I mentioned from the God Calling book, how bout that? AA is using the same book for its daily guide, we were flabbergasted. This is the same patient who suggested I read the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book. These two books, in my opinion are pretty mystical. I attribute my growing relationship with God to these two works as well as the people (Angels) placed on my path to guide me toward God and Soveriegnty.
It has been getting easier and easier to hear God, know God and most importantly, do what God want's me to do. I feel truly blessed that I've advanced more in the past several years in my understanding of myself as a spark of God, than I have in my whole life combined before that. I can see how far afield I was from God and myself. It's gotten a lot clearer for me now to know when I am moving toward God and when I am moving away from God. It has gotten easier to hear God tell me what to do. I'm sitting here now thinking and feeling how truly simple it is, but how hard and how long I had to work to get here.
I'm just wondering if other's are experiencing deep or intense changes in your relationship with God, or however you think of higher power. I'm thinking this is really what asension is about, the Kingdom, the power, the glory are yours, now and forever....if only we can clear all the obstacles in our way. Feel free to share if inclined, if it feels right cause I know how personal this relx is. I'm not sure why I'm writing this today, but I'll guess that God wants me to. Love, Karen