Just lately, in this past week, I've listened to several interviews where the speakers are calling out
for volunteers. Robert Morningstar in his interview asked for WOMEN to volunteer. Dunno exactly what
they would be volunteering for, but he felt only a woman in a prominent position within that movement
would 'work', needed female energy. Lisa M. Harrison and company have started up a new program called
collective imagination. Alfaaraa asks that folks 'sign up' to become world Karma servers. Mark Kimmel
is seeking folks to join his program, I forget exactly what it's called, cosmic light community or something
along those lines I think, but whatever, he too is looking for folks to step up to the plate. I thought it
kinda interesting that as December 2012 approaches folks are starting to 'get their ducks in line' for whatever
comes next. Seeking out like minded folks to work together on a jointly agreed new reality.
First instinct is to stand up and wave my arm in the air...me, me, choose me. But that initial spark of
reaction is about as far as it goes. How's that for 3Dness? I mean I truly do want somebody to step up
and take responsibility for fixing things up for a better way of living on our planet, but I want somebody
ELSE to 'take care of it'. Seems to me that's how we got where we are now, giving over our power to folks
who WANTED to be in control. It's taken me most of my lifetime to RELINQUISH the idea that I had control
over anything but myself.
Maybe they need cheerleaders, you know, booster support from the 'cheap seats'. Or the tea lady, I can
get around handing out homebaked goodies and cuppas. Somehow I just can't imagine myself getting overly
involved in any of these 'movements'. It's simply not my style. I WANNA contribute, but my innate laziness
makes it a bit of a challenge. Or maybe it's simply that none of the 'plans' on offer resonate very deeply.
Yeah, grand ideas, good onya, but I don't feel pulled to participate beyond extending positive loving energy
to all of the people who are out there trying to make a difference.
Always makes me kinda wonder about my own sincerity in alla this. I mean if I truly want something to change
I oughtta be in there stirring the pot, but somehow I have the idea the pot stirring phase of this adventure
is probably just about over. The pot stirring has reached a point of total change and flux. Where wouldja
even begin with the 'fixing' part?
Self. Always comes back to self doesn't it? Maybe my self has its plate full becoming it's authentic self
and there's not enough 'left over' to get out there and support 'causes'. Maybe it's just I lack much in
the way of ambition...goal setting...alla that sorta stuff. Kinda turned that whole who's the boss business
ages ago. Few years ago the 'buzz word' was turn it over, let go and let God. Now it seems that story has
been adjusted and we are no longer just 'along for the ride'. We are being asked to serve.
Maybe this is just one more example of my own personal late freightedness. Maybe I'm just dragging my feet
a bit. Hanging about for someone to tell me what I CAN do. I guess we will know when we are each called
personally. Something will reach into the very depths of our souls and we will KNOW with every fiber of
our being that this is our role to play.
Maybe I'm just making excuses for myself here...wouldn't actually surprise me all that much. I have the
desire to serve. I have the will to serve. What I'm lacking is some focused direction to apply myself to.
That hasn't arrived yet. I'm pretty sure I WILL know when that time comes.
Until then, I guess there's not one single thing wrong with being here now and experiencing each moment
to its fullest potential. That's what FEELS right just now. Maybe there will be a bandwagon with my
name on it that rolls up beside me..then I will hop on and serve to my best ability. Until then, well,
I'm quite enjoying life just as it rolls out for me every single day.