Cranky. That's exactly how I'm feeling today, cranky, cross and not pleasant company. Even for myself. I don't
think I can do this headache business much longer. I feel walled in, captured, imprisoned by my own body. I
want OUTTA HERE. Makes me wanna use the H word,(hate) and I NEVER use that word, but today I'm real tempted
to feel that way about my own head.
Hmmm, I thought maybe getting that out there would make me feel a bit better. It didn't. Goes to show ya huh?
Alla those little fits and histronics I performed over the past decades were simply wasted effort. Well, I guess
I knew that already, I mean bitching never fixed nuthin did it? Now days ya don't even get that moment's relief
by dumping it all around the place. Thing about being awake, you can't pull the wool over your own eyes anymore.
Frankly I'm beginning to think these headaches are rubbing a smooth spot on parts of my brain. I'm just not
functioning properly. It's like the world has closed in around me and all I'm left with is the headache. It
gets to the point where there's simply nothing to do for it but escape into sleep. Now that wouldn't be so bad
if I got the occasional headache but for me it's the other way round. Occasionally I DON'T get headaches. Last
night my son told me 'Mom you're a whole different person when you don't have a headache'. That feels exactly
right. When I get these headaches a whole big part of me seems to take off to 'other places' and only the
grumpy cranky me hangs out in 3D. OK, that oughtta do it for the pity party...
Ya know I've been thinking lately that perhaps the animals and bird life here on Earth had already made their
move into the higher Ds. It just seemed like lately they are more ummm...present. We can communicate with them
in this whole new way..or so it seems to me anyway. Well, I was wrong. Birds at least are still very much in
3D energies. This morning a coupla currowongs came along and decided to help themselves to the magpie food I put
out for Cripy Gimp and his family. WELL, that was NOT a good idea. Evidently birds, or at least my magpie family.
are still feeling very territorial and competitive, cause Cripy Gimp took off after that currowong and next thing ya
knew, they put on an flying show like you can't believe. They were swooping and diving and circling around like they
were part of some ultra complicated sky ballet. It was just amazing. We watched the crop sprayer doing the crops
the other day. Now he's GOOD, but the display these birds put on this morning left him in the dust.
Obviously I have absolutely nothing of value to offer today. Not even sure why I'm even doing a blog. Mostly I
like to keep my cranky self outta the way if I can. Today cranky seems to be winning out. At least there's one
more hope on the horizon. Seeing the doc today about the sinus polyp thing...everybody send positive headache
removal vibes. I'm really feeling like I'm at the end of my tether here...all good energy appreciated.