Few years ago I got this really interesting picture that I've been carrying around with me ever since.
I've tried to explain it a whole buncha times in my blog along the way, but I never quite got the whole
picture. Now I DO have the whole picture, and I wanna get it recorded here.

This all started when I developed this pillar of light that ran vertically down through my body. It
came in where the crown chakra used to be and went out from my feet and back into the Earth. That was
the same time my chakras went away. Actually they mostly just shrunk into a representation of themselves
and became this little plate looking thing attached to the light pillar. The light pillar also had one
blue stripe and one purple stripe down the side that I also didn't understand. For the longest time I've
been wanting to clarify alla this in my mind and I finally have.

Here's what the pillar looks like:

OK since I've been working with that light pillar I've come to realize that the blue and purple stripes down one
side might be about what Rays I came here in. Not totally sure about that, but it feels right. Then after awhile
I realized that I was only seeing a tiny bit of the whole picture. What I was seeing as a white light pillar running
through my body was only one little section of something bigger. A torus. Here's what the torus looks like when
I 'back away' and get a long range view:

What I finally figured out that what I was seeing as a light pillar was simply one section of the torus where I dwell.
If you look at that torus illustration and find the cardinal directions, east, west....alla that...it turns out that
I am on the western edge of the Torus. At the north point is Universe, Creation, God, whatever word you like. At
the eastern point is the Sun. At the bottom, south, is Mother Earth.

As I watch the torus, I can see energy flowing from Creation, into the Sun, onto Mother Earth and around to me, then
back to Source. Along the way round it seems you can sorta 'communicate' with the other directions. I mean that
there is also an energy flow between Mother Earth and me and Source that goes both ways. The energy from the Source
to the Sun doesn't...it only flows outward. Guess the Sun just takes orders and doesn't ask alot of questions or
something. Same thing with Earth and the Sun, there doesn't seem any 'back and forth' energies flowing there. The
Earth probably just follows 'orders' as well. Or, more likely, I'm just not 'privy to' that energy
exchange and it's not in my field of awareness.

I have no idea why it feels so important to get alla this straight and illustrated. I've described it a heap of
times, but I could never be satisfied with my own explanations. Picture's worth a thousand words and alla that.
Maybe now that I've pretty much nailed it down for myself I can just stop thinking about it so much. It's been
one of those little bugaboos that just kept pestering me for ages.

When alla these mental movies were playing was the same time my chakras went away. I am not exactly sure what the
connection is, but I have long felt that the chakras might be the seven seals that are spoken of on various paths.
At the time I had done some very intensive chakra work...got this lovely chakra book as a gift and it was a workbook
kinda thing. Ya worked each chakra separately really intensely and didn't move to the next until all the processes had
been completed. I always kinda felt that intensive work sorta 'unstuck' those seals, and that's why they went away.
The heart chakra sorta expanded into most of the space the original chakras were in, got way big, but it doesn't feel
like a chakra anymore, it's just this really big expanded heartspace where I do most of my work...and play.

Dunno why it kept plaguing me until I finally found an illustration. I mean I understood it, why is it important
that anyone else does? Or maybe my 3D mind is just noting that I'm in my 'advancing years' and it's afraid I'm gonna
forget. Who knows? This present world is way too weird to try to analyze.

yarra