The Dance of Life (Reposted for Mother's Day)

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Posted May 11th, 2008 by Lumina
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*Thanks to Michelle for reminding me of this channel. And this is one post that won't mind being "eaten" after one day...*

Today, again, my heart broke for my mom. I shared with her how a certain song (Yemaya Assessu by Deva Premal) many months ago, had me stop, sit and bask in what felt like the hug and love of the most loving mother energy. I told her how I then went online to see if I could find what that phrase/chant meant only to be shocked to find, “…and Yemaya Assessu from Africa, this song celebrates the mother of all Goodness…earth.”

Without realizing it, I sparked her deep and painful mother guilt. With tears, the tiny bit she is able to release, as she has never been one who felt emotion very comfortably, she said something like, “I feel so bad for my kids…I wish I could have been more loving.”

It didn’t cross my mind while sharing what a beautiful moment it was to realize my soul recognized an ancient chant, and what it felt like to be in the arms of our True Mother, she would feel bad hearing that her daughter sat with tears basking in something she did not have often in this lifetime.

I sat and hugged her telling her I have forgiven her for all (we have had this conversation so many times) and that just last night I was thinking of how much I will miss her when she dies. She went onto say, “I know…me too…when I die I am going to miss you all and feel bad for a lot.” I don’t believe this is true for any of us, and I told her so. I told her that she needs to know she will learn on the Other Side how grateful we are that she did exactly what we asked when we planned this life together. I said a little more and I think I helped her feel better, but how can I convince her to let go of her guilt? I am a mother myself, and I know this guilt. It is probably one of the heaviest burdens a human being can feel…having failed, hurt or harmed her/his own…

How do you convince her? With Love. As you know, Love is the beginning and Love is the end. Regardless of what she did or didn’t know, you love her. Regardless of who she was or is, you love her.

You did indeed ask her for every experience she provided. Be it those that uplifted you or those that broke your heart. She does not remember the day you begged her to “please do this for me and my growth.” She loved you and all of her children enough to play the role of one who has “no heart” at times.

You can tell her that a part of your soul resides in another dimension, right now, at this very minute with her in the space of All Knowing. When she reaches the Other Side she will not have regret or sorrow, but instead will be joined by you, all of her children, her parents, her siblings; by any she now feels she may have harmed. They will embrace her with the same love you felt the day your soul recognized the Love in the chant Yemaya Assessu. She will instantly remember and know that she did exactly as she was asked. She will not be “forgiven” and there will be no need for apologies. There is nothing to forgive. Instead she will be thanked. All will embrace her in one thick and warm blanket of gratitude.

As you told her, what she can do now, is Be different than the person she regrets being. She already is and you reminded her of this fact. For this we thank you and we smile.

It is never too late to decide things will change. It is never too late to be the mother, father, person, etc. you wish to be. If you can let go of the fear of being vulnerable yourself, you can all rest assured that you are giving and Being the best You that you can be.

Have no regrets. In The Dance of Life, you all needed partners and you hand picked each and every one before leaving Home, knowing the music you moved to would always have an underlying/subliminal message of Love.

~February 22, 2008