I Need To Go Now - ThanK You, Everyone!

Hey there Lovey Beings,
I have been gone for about a week and want to say thank you, to everyone who has sent me messages. I would love to answer you all individually, as well as visit all of you dear friends, but I cannot at this time and hope that this blog will suffice. I am OK. Much is going on, and I feel a tug to stay off the site for now. Some things I need to deal with on my own, I guess. I am not sure, just a feeling.

I don't know what I missed while I was gone, but it must have been reeeeeeellly interesting!  

Yesterday, I felt the most incredible wanting to leave Earth, I just cried. I felt like nothing has changed, that nothing was improving, that it was all in my mind, and that I would never be able to experience joy in my life. The mind is so tricky, trying to hold me there, trying to fool me into thinking that things are just as they have always been and that I am somehow living in Neverland. Depression hit me, for the first time in nearly a year. I looked it in the eye and said THIS IS A LIE. IT IS ALL A LIE. THINGS HAVE IMPROVED AND THE WORLD IS CHANGING AND I AM LOVED AND LOVING. I AM RELEASING WHAT NO LONGER SERVES ME.

I took a shower and washed my aura and said this is all just coming up to let go. Wash it off. If I left, I would just have to come back to finish stuff and it would be just as painful. Besides, I am probably very close to a breakthrough and hence the discomfort.  

I know that most people quit right before they succeed, not realizing how close they are to achieving their goals. I love the movie Hidalgo, about a 3000 mile horse race across the deserts of the Middle East. There is a point where the lead character is ready to give up and he receives a vision of his ancestors, that gives him the strength to continue. There is a hill in front of him and it looks like he has far to go. It turns out that he is only about 1 mile from the finish. It was just out of sight. Had he quit, he would have died. Instead he wins the race and made history, being the first American to ever win the race and also an American Indian.  The movie is based on a true story of Frank Hopkins and his amazing mustang, Hidalgo. I highly recommend it. I am still learning things from it. Who would have thought you could actually learn anything of value from watching movies?

Anyway, I ramble now. I am going to read a few blogs and then I will be off for awhile. Have fun and play nice. I love you all and just to be crystal clear, I will be back.. Just some wierd energies coming in. Enjoy the surf. I am. Big waves, today.

Love and Peace,
Erin