The Lightening Storm

On the way to China, I looked out the window and saw a bolt of
lightening shoot across the sky. I knew something big was going to
happen and had a somewhat ominous feeling even going in the first
place. I had accepted this. The first day I got into a 7 car pile
up and have been nursing my head injury. I decided to not take the
nervous system medication, minimal pain medication which I am no
longer taking and the other random mystery pills given to me. It's
been quite painful.

Two days after the accident, my arms and fingers were shaking
uncontrollably and it lasted for a couple days. The pain in my head
was so intense, I couldn't do anything but hold my head. It felt
like a ring of knives around my head, slicing and then sliced right
over the top of my head and through the center... and a stab wound
right into my third eye. When I first shaved my head, I noticed my
head shape was different but thought I was imagining things. The
bump on my head has gotten smaller but is still there and my head
looks MUCH different (to me) than it did even a month ago. It's sore
and cranky to touch the top-slightly-back part of my head. It's all
bumpy and uneven feeling and it's hard to shave now because it's
all... bumpy and ridgy. heh

I've been trying to draw but everything that comes out looks like
I've been tripping on LSD. Today, my vision was distorted and I was
trying to stand up in class and fell over and landed on my side.
Shooting pain at the very base of my spine where my tailbone is.
Great. After that, my legs started with the kriyas and as I was
walking outside for my dinner, I fell again and lost the ability to
walk for a few seconds. I felt as though the lower half of my body
was... not really a part of me. I could see and feel all this energy
draining out of me. Going downwards instead of upwards...

The dream I had on March 8-March 9 seems to link in to whatever is
going on... In it, I had HUGE open wounds running down my shins and
needed to go get surgery for them (although not in any western kind
of hospital) and as they were putting me under I left my body
completely. Haven't done that in a while, maintaining lucidity in a
dream and then OBEing out completely. When I came to in the dream
again, I could not walk. Then I decided to sell weed in the hospital
to help the cancer patients (I don't know why..) I could not smoke it
in the dream, anyway. A friend was there to stop me. Then I'm at a
beach where I'm trying to pick a name. 6-7 came to me. I only
managed to write one down after I'd woken up in the morning. I've
searched for the language. I know I didn't write it down 100%
correctly, either. Can't find anything on it. It's Aktanat.

So, anyway, I thought I'd update on what's going on in my world. I'm
struggling with the upgrades but a bit limited on the exercises I
used to do... But not too much, after asking, it's not staying
contained into my home life at the moment. I feel like ONE HUGE BALL
of instability, actually. Being one with the trees and trying to
stay grounded but I'm still all over the place. Could do without the
hot flashes. heh :)