Weird Questions

OK, I haven't been a member of this Family of Light for very long, but I have been so warmly welcomed, and feel so at home here, I'm gonna put myself out there a bit. I feel I have a safe place to bring my 'weird' questions. Or, at the very least, that you guys won't fall about on the floor laughing. I gotta stop talking about my 'stuff' with folks close to me. They've rolled their eyes so many time some got stuck that way.

Anyway, two weird things have been going on that I am hoping someone else has been experiencing. Partly so that I can feel less nuts, and partly because I want to know what comes next.

First, I have a portal here on my property. I have no idea where it came from or how it got here. I don't even know HOW I know it's there, I just do. I can't see it or touch it with my 3D senses. I have meditated and contemplated on this, and I can see the portal in my mind's eye, but I haven't yet walked through it. I seem to have some fear about it, and no amount of surrendering seems to matter.

A few months ago, in November, I had a soul exchange, perhaps this portal is left from that? If that's true, why would it still be here? Since it is here anyway, can I play with it?

I mean if you have it in your consciousness do you automatically accept that your higher self installed it? There doesn't seem to be any darkness or negative energy around it. It seems bright and clear.

My husband thinks that I created the portal myself, but if he's right, it didn't happen in 3D consciousness. I reckon if I created it I would feel safe going into it, wouldn't I? I mean wouldn't the frequencies resonate automatically and fear would end? Or maybe what holds me back from entering the portal isn't fear, at all, just my higher self saying, 'it's not time yet'?

OK that's my first weird question. Or maybe it isn't weird at all and heaps of folks have already experienced this...years ago...and I'm on the late freight. Anyway, my second weird questions is about chakra merging. Anyone else have this happen?

My chakras melted together into a pool of clear light, then the light became a piller that ran up from the crystal heart of Mother Earth and up through my body and out the crown chakra position at the top of my head and out toward Universe. Then the chakras sorta shrunk up into something like desktop icons, located between the heart and solarplexes chakara positions. They still spin and shine their respective colours, but appear to be ornamental rather than functional. Or at least I have no idea what their use is at this point.

Later on the pillar extending out of the crown chakra position sorta 'hooked' up with...umm...something. I'm thinking it's a connection to some higher dimension/consciousness, but I'm not sure exactly. So, when the connection was made the pillar of light went from crystal clear light to goldish white light, if that makes any sense. I believe this connection, from 'heaven' to Earth, through me, is the antahkarana, what's called the rainbow bridge. A little while after that happened I noticed that there were two sorta stripe things running down the left hand side. One is blue and another is violet. The blue one is 'out' switched off, not shining. The violet one is shining. I can go into the light pillar and pull the violet light around me. I cannot open the blue stripe at all.

I sorta have this idea that these two stripes might represent the rays the two different souls worked through? I'd appreciate any input on this from anyone who has studied the rays...heck, anyone with anything to say. I need help in figuring out what to book for the time ahead, a nice suite in the looney bin, a seat on a mothership or a place in the New Earth.

yarra