Darn shift..Darn release

Yes, I am at a moment where I am simply...tired..Yet, I know what is happening around me. You'd think this would be a source of comfort..at times it is..In other words, when I read about how these are tumultuous times of change and with it comes that great companion..despair. As much as I can reach out and keep another soul afloat..and love with all my heart..I feel like I can't maintain the inner peace I so desire to better serve..and to better live my life.
All the experiences, dreams, angelic messsages, writing I have done..I sit here with these "emotions" b/c my life is turmoil. I wake everyday with the pit of anxiety in my stomach..Recurring thoughts of one who broke my heart and whether or not I will make it on my own..feeling lonely despite all the people around me..
I know it's ridiculous..(or not) But, I have worked on my being for longer than I can remember..always striving to balance and grow. ALways surrenerring to Divine Will to serve all..love all..RIght now..I am writing my very human frustration at not feeling how I WANT to feel. So..there..
Now that I let that out a bit, I will say that I am stronger than I thought I was..and I still have faith and triumph each day over this damned anxiety..I have written so many entries of meditative healing and prayer that something has certainly come from the darkness........WE can not know the light without knowing the darkness...Cyclic it can be, but hoping and praying that these dark cycles dissipate to allow peace to reign...I return to my center with great love and compassion...anchor as much as I can...and pray one day..I will wake..smile..and simply have a nice day. I know it will happen...
Keep loving..Keep well..and never let go of that heart within you!
Love and Light,
Khael