Birthday

Today is my earth birthday. 56 yrs into this life wondering about how many has my soul known and knowing that that fact is unimportant. Feeling the gratitude for a 'good life'. Visiting w/ my quickly declining mother, knowing that she and I were never really connected, nor my father but occasionally I go thru the motions of familiarity, w/o expectations, and exchange w/ her. It seems to soothe her some. My life is 'good' because I believe it so. I've been in the throes of addiction for yrs at a time, spent months, one day at a time, disappointed when I realized I had awakened to face another. I've spent yrs incarcerated living amongst a concentrated sea of negative energy where I was determined to be an island. I've grieved from sea to shining sea over the loss of 'family'. I've spent yrs exploring the darkside when the frustration of attempting to fit into others 'boxes' was more than I could bear. All my moments on the outside looking in have been seeds sown in seemingly desolate ground but now bring forth fruit inconceivable. Life is 'good'. I wear like a warm blanket today. Warm that can only be felt in the NOW. I smile as the synchronicity gently reminds me of my direction and the abundance laid upon my threshold embraces me in Love. This is a birthday whose celebration has been given to me from within. Life is 'good'! Love to you my brothers and sisters.
Namaste,
Mark