Is this Lassitude?

Lately wherever I look, I just keep running into the same information. Yes, presented from heaps of different perspectives, but basically the same info. What does this mean? That I've missed something along the way and I am still missing it?

Or is this lassitude? Am I falling into a state of being that has nothing to do with reaching, or questing, or searching? Now I KNOW I don't know everything, so it can't be that. Where did the fire in the belly go? Where did the drive to 'know' go?

I am not at all sure that my 'plateau' isn't a message that I've missed, or misunderstood something, but I haven't figured out what that is. Seems to me like my path to this point was guided and direct. It seemed almost automatic that whatever I needed just popped up in front of me at the right time.

There were downloads and awakenings and activations that kept opening doors for me. It took time, meditation and focused intent, but it wasn't difficult. It's different now.

I've actually been feeling like this for a few weeks, but having just completed the soul merge, I figured it was a time of incorporation, and didn't give it much thought. But I feel like I've done most of the incorporation work now, and I'm still feeling...well not stuck exactly, but expectant.

Let's face it, all these new awarenesses and awakenings are exciting. It's like being on the greatest thrill ride in the park. I LIKED feeling that way. I kinda miss the excitement.

Does anyone else feel that we are right on the verge of something...like one step ahead of us? Or is this yet another of my endless patience lessons? I keep TELLING my self that I understand patience...for some reason the telling isn't working.

There is this feeling building up in me like excitement, or anticipation, and it's getting really big, and intense. Whatever it is, it feels huge and important. I know this is sorta cheating, but hey, we are all friends here. If anyone know's what's next...gimme a little hint.

Intending Acceptance and Patience
yarra