Global Circle and other musings

The meditation was prime time for us here in Australia, 8pm. I suppose my husband mighta wondered where I disappeared to, but he's used to that. How did it feel? What did I see and/or hear?

Well, this is gonna sound a bit odd maybe, but the first feeling that rose in me was 'femaleness'. I've written before about my walk-in experience in November, and how the new soul had a very strong masculine energy. Since that time I've had odd thoughts and feelings about my the blending of my male and female energies. So it was really nice to be with sisters who radiate such strong 'womanness'. Probably sounds corny, but the mental movie that came up was of me holding my infant son in my arms as he nursed. Keep in mind that he's now 33 and I couldn't lift the big lug with a forklift. LOL well, there's a stero type if I ever heard one.

Strange as all that was it didn't last long at all, then I was sorta...ummm, washed over, by this feeling that I can only describe as kinship, or sisterhood. Now THAT was nice! Especially since I've been spending so much time in solitude lately. It was almost the same feeling you get when you haven't seen your Mom for a really long time, and then get to hug her. Like some sorta homecoming.

I gotta admit, I was talking, not out loud, but to the sisters. I saw us in a circle around something sorta like a campfire, and as I walked up and joined the group, I announced, 'hey, it's me yarra'. I also, in my typical yarra nosey style, tried to see if I could figure out who was who by their energies. I wasn't able to match anyone up this time. I hope in the future meds we can work on this together a bit.

Unfortunately I had only one half hour to spend with the meditation. I had agreed to do something with my husband at 8:30pm, so that's all the time I had. I've disappeared so much from him lately that if he specifically asks for company, I don't want to say no.

This morning, reflecting on my experience I think I can understand it a bit more. It's been sorta strange being me since the walk-in experience. At first I 'felt' male. I started seeing things from this different perspective. It's hard to explain, because I don't feel like I imagine a man would feel...you know, on the inside...but neither do I feel as much female as I did before. There's a distinct masculine 'side' somewhere within me now, and it seems to come forth as much as the feminine does. Now, in the beginning it felt really strange and odd, but, now that things have balanced out a bit, I find that I can communicate with my son and husband on a different sorta level. Like I can see their pictures or something. It's actually sorta exciting, getting to know the two people on the Earth that I'm closest to in a whole new way.

I have such a tendancy to ramble...what I meant to say was that for as long I can remember I've been hearing that as we move into higher dimensions we merge our male and female energies and become androgenous. I am wondering if this whole blending experience is part of the preparation for life on a higher dimension? Or am I even stranger that I thought I was???

Anyway, Thanks to my sisters for the magical experience. Can we do it again? Can we HUH?
Can we? Can we?

yarra