I love myself – Celebrate with me, if you wish !

Posted July 27th, 2008 by Star_Wise

I love myself – Celebrate with me, if you wish !

The first step to loving others is to love oneself. I don’t mean to sound daft, but after so many years of struggling to be who I am, and living other Lives, facing challenges, etc. (as some of you here at Light Workers are well aware of, by following my blogs), I can now honestly say :

I love myself !

At last, I am not afraid of being myself, and of finding and connecting with my true essence or my individual and unique strength. I have faced the demons that a child faces when she encounters abusive situations and a lack of manifest love in her child-hood and earlier years. I have faced living in a new country with an adoptive family, of another “race” to me, as well as indifference and discrimination, such as being at the train station, minding my own busines, to walk past a couple of young men and hear one of them say “I’d like to put her head in a vice and crush it.” I was saved by my guardian angel once when I was in town at 9.30pm, waiting for the bus, and a man pressed something into my back and said to me, “you’re going to come with me, because I’ve got a knife at your back”. I live with an angelic cat, Shandy, whom, as a common focus of love and interest, kept my partner and myself together.

I was saved, and I am saving … myself …. from fear and obscurity. Through a good heart or good intention, and working through my issues via my dreams, my waking reflections, my actions, and my belief in Love, I have survived, and come to love myself. No more dreams of despising someone – myself – and wanting to murder someone (myself) whom I sub-consciously believed was not “up to scratch”, i.e. was not good enough, and whom I hated. No more split personality, and looking with shifty eyes at things, because I did not want to see the reality which was in front of me.

I feel that I have gone from being a “card-board cut-out”, watching the world go by, but helping people and being considerate as much as I was able to, to being a flower in bloom!! It has been hard for me to believe in myself, but, fortunately, I have always tried to balance things within me, and in my outer world. This, I believe, has contributed toward my spiritual growth, as has going through and past the “big freeze” earlier this year, in which I felt very depressed and felt like I was going mad. Such an episode, I see now, was myself turning myself inside out, so to speak, so that I could come out of that realm / gap / episode, knowing myself more intimately than before.

The love which I felt in March this year has returned to me – love of myself - and through the mirror that I am, love of you and of All that Is. I thank the Angels and the Divine, and my friends at Light-Workers here, and my friends “there”, who have supported me and we, along our journeys in showering Love upon Earth. I have seen my own Light, and now I will shine that Light brightly upon everything that is, in a co-creative effort to manifest a creative world of peace and beauty for all Beings.

Thank you

smilingsunflower