Awakening - my story

Hello,

I have never done anything like this before so please bear with me.

Until 3 yrs a go I didn't believe in anything, I always had kindness and compassion but I also carried a lot of anger and resentment towards situations. I hadn't read a book in about 15yrs and was so introverted and could not show emotions.

All of a sudden I found the urge to buy and read books on psychic development, after reading around 20 books now, I still can't meditate for toffees! I also bought 4 Reiki books because I had a small healing gift and wanted to expand this, but didn't do anything about it due to work pressures.

I always felt like something was missing in life but never took the time out to find out what it was, there was an empty feeling and the voice in my mind was continually putting me down. I joined a spiritualist church which had great energy and nice people but I couldn't get the validation of continuation of life from there, some mediums were good but I couldn't figure out why messages didn't contain more concrete proof. I stopped going a year a go and nothing much happened, work took over again.

You know the funny thing is I ended up here where I finally feel connected and that empty feeling is now gone by a strange co-incidence. I started reading David Icke books this year, I had been drawn to one of his books for some time but never bought one, I didn't even really know what they were about, one day instead of the latest psychic book I took a chance and bought "the biggest secret", amazingly it made sense in a strange kind of way, my friends began to think i had finally lost the plot.

I subscribed to the forum about a week a go (first time I had even seen a forum let alone posted a message, I got a reply from a lovely lady in the US that mentioned a similar site to this one, so registered then I found this site and am hooked, by the way I lost my job in June through redundancy and I feel free as a bird, I should be panicking by now about paying the mortgage, getting another job etc. but NO, what do I do, I sigh up for the Reiki course I always wanted to do!

This path is still unfolding in front of me, I do not understand my emotions some days but I can honestly say that through the love and support shown by people all over the world, I can see we are all connected, I will never again lose sight of that.

PS. My heart chakra is still on fire, is it normal or should I turn it off, second question, how do you turn it off?

Greg