Drama ,love ,sadness, a blessing and a little boy fighting for his life

I have read a bit on some people dramas .I when starting being a spiritual person heard the univerce sends you dramas if you asked for them .It never sat well with me,but in a logical term I can maybe a little part of me agree.I have thought a lot over the years ,ok I might be sent these dramas but it is how I choose to react ,for me that was easier to grasp.Well it came into play in the worse drama of my life.
A Sunday morning my granddaughter that I have raised and I was sitting drawing ,the phone rang ,it was the hospital the nurse said are you Debbie I said yes well she went into details ,My grandson was fighting for his life.I am not even sure what came out of my mouth but it was a hesterical scream .The nurse so calmly told me what had to be done that was to go up to the hospital and mind the other 3 grandchildren arriving with there dad I said I need 15 minutes or so to gather myself .My girl new some bad crapped come down because in her 12 years has never seen me like that she went running outside to the fence and she was crying in fright ,our wonderful nighbour came flying over .I walked outside I heard my friend and I told her what had happend to her brother she just cryed harder I nearly colaspsed and my friend held us in his arms as if a eternity had come and gone,Ringing in my head Come on Deb get it together over and over ,my reaction to the drama had caused such pain for my granddaughter.Well it was time to go I had gathered my mask to hide the fear i felt .My friend stayed with us for awhile out side the other children had not arrived .My daughter walked out for a smoke left the wee one inside ,She walked over my granddaughter let one fly and my daughter walked away abusing us ,In my head stay calm it not a drama I am here to do a job ,look after my grandchildren ,for my daughter she would just have to wait.My friend told her to get back to her son and she did.The three of us walked in and were summoned inside to a room told why and the police and child safty were on there way.The Grim news was my little man was not breathing on his own ,he had a broken leg a broken skull and eye socket and they were concerned his brain was swelling ,they were preparing him to be air lifted out.OK I kept saying your here for the grandchildren taking deep breath ,in my minds eye sending light to him and sending angels to be with him.I want to scream .Ok we walk out to the waiting area and my girl is still crying my friend offered to stay but I said no we will be fine .One angry face grandson arrived ,ok I will give him a kiss and a cuddle ,One quiet grandson no emotion at all he got a kiss and a cuddle ,one happy baby that just wanted to play with all the new toys .In my head I say ok your not part of the drama stay out of it ,put what ever courage you can master dont be the nurse take that straight out of your head.Well my girl her crys were becoming softer.And I started to olay with the baby relising it was me and her that wernt forcosing on the drama.Well quiet 6 old that never says much at the best of time ,Stood up and rather annoyed with me he said Nan dont you know so and so going to die.Well that shook me ,but I believe the universe gave me the words to speak,I stood up mirrored him hands on the hips and in the same tone of voice ,and said what no he is not ,he said yes he is,Nope cause I talked to god and he said he would be just fine.he said you talk to god wow Well some of the cheer that came from the waiting room.And the smile on this 6 year olds face I think without a lie it is the biggest grin I have seen on any child .It totally changed the dinamics ,My girl sat there in her chair palms opened wide and eyes closed ,she was doing what she has been taught by me and my group,the boys thought she was asleep ,they started playing a bit ,bubby just was having a great grand time.Well out step dad came ,he said to me your wanted back inside ,the kids hudled together but a sercuity guard was close.I walked into that room telling myself over and over again stayout of the drama ,I could not get near my little man so many machines doctors and nurses.In the middle of the room my daughter rocking back and forth ,I sat on my chair and First thought was go to her,I just couldnt and to a spiritulist you might think I am a bitch ,I had been rescuring this girl of mine and cleaning up her messes and I just could not be there in the moment .I only lasted 2 minutes I had to leave ,but like magic ,I heard one doctor say pupils reative ,I was close to her ,so I pated her on the head and said thats a good sign,and believe in the magic .keep throwing white light around with your mind.I had to gather myself for a minute .Then I went out side .We were called to an office the children were going to be removed ,I was asked to take them.I did of course ,but sadly after awhile for there safty well the baby mainly I dropped her while bathing her ,I was injured at work .It was a very hard choice but one that had to be made.Our man survived but has braindamage some days I will let drama into my thoughts but then I kick myself bacause he is fine anyway.The other children are all doing well they have a loving foster home.My daughter has been drug free since it has happend and we are closer than we have been since she was in her young teens.And I know without all the energies we put in my daughter even though she didnt have a clue what I ment she did it ,my girl I was given .and me marching them angels in and of course the best of medical care.I think being in this drama I played ok cause I am a sook.It was a sacred message for me ,you can do what ever you wont you can become the drama or you can just stand on the side line.