It's my birthday today!! Ok, it was yesterday, but I didn't tell anyone. Can we pretend it's today? I call a Do Over!!! :) :)

If any of you saw my last blog "I can wallow in my cake if I want to...right?"
You know that I was conflicted on the birthday thing.

Turns out, the whole issue is one of loving myself. Being ok enough with myself to ask for what I need both from those who understand me as well as those who don't. My soul family and my earth family.

I had a rough time yesterday (my actual birthday) being conflicted on celebrating with my earth 'birth' family whom I am very very different from.
I wanted to celebrate with all of you whom I've shared so many intimate moments with during the last year and a half. But I was so conflicted on things with my family, I believed that although I should not have dishonored myself by celebrating with them physically, as that didn't feel best for me, I should have told you all that it was my birthday. Felt like an ego trip to tell you all and 'solicit' birthday greetings.
By the way, I had a talk with some family members today and really cleared the air with why I am different and how nothing was personal against them. That I loved them very much and was born into this family because I had to learn how to fit "out" this lifetime, and they would help me see that.

What I realized is that I really wanted to share with you all my 'graduation' from 33 to 34. 33 was a very big and special year for me. So much transformation in the past 2 years, but 33 held special meaning for me. I was feeling a little sad about leaving 33 behind actually, but then reflected on everything it was for me.

I love you all, my soul family, and feel bad that I did not just come out and ask for what I needed, which was for you all to celebrate my 'graduation' from 33 and my very existence in the world at this time with me. I have always felt like I 'belonged' here on this website, and this is really one of the only places in the world that I feel that way, which I know is a trait we all share. So why shouldn't I want to celebrate with those that 'get' me?? Right??

So I choose to love and honor the being that I am and ask if we can pretend today is my birthday instead.

Ok? I call a Birthday do-over!!!! :) :) :)

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