alzheimers

I've been searching for a long time for my internal truths....I was angry most of the time and did'nt even know it. The anger showed up thru my irritability and moodiness. I use to think that's just who I was. Now I know it was the result of negative energy and simply not knowing.
My mother and I have always been very close. She struggled hard to raise my three brothers and I by herself. She was divorced in the 70's and my father ... well lets just say he did'nt help her with money or his presence. She was very bitter. It was extremely hard and stressful for her. She now has Alzheimers. She is still at home with my stepfather. We want to keep her at home as long as humanly possible. She can't take care of herself at all. We do everything from bathing her to feeding her. It has been a major life change for me... seeing her slowly fade away from her reality. She was always a srong-willed, super smart, dignified woman. If I stayed in my beliefs taught from childhood.... I would think my life was over without her...but thru my new beliefs, truths... I know I will know her again forever and ever. This chapter in this life is what it is. but there will be many more chapters to come in a book that never ends.