well I didnt feel or saw the lightship and if nobody told me there would be an event or something on 14th of october then I wouldnt have known. and I wish nobody would have told me.
or maybe I did feel it because I got all paranoid last night creeped out and fucked up. I was meditating in the ventrilo chatroom. that was nice :] thank you for that moment.
but then my mum as usual told me I had to shut off my computer and head off to bed hehe. so there I wanted to resume my meditation since I was nejoying it alot.
I went to lie down because I couldnt be bothered sitting in the lotus position anymore.
I fell asleep.
I was still paranoid from when I was awake, so maybe I did feel some energy. I dont think I was ready for it.
and I dreamed vividly almost abstract like. well I read about astral projection and how it could happen in your sleep right. like lucid dreaming.
well it felt like this kind of but not quite. there was nothing except ALOT of colours and stuff going on. its like what I had been feeling that day was visualised on front of me.
this went on for some hours heh.
and when I woke up I still felt kind of fucked up but not paranoid or afraid anymore. the tarot card readings made me feel happy btw. I saw that girl again, I want to try and see what her aura looks like but whenever I look at her she looks back :P so its hard to do and I havent pulled it off.
I wish aura's just came natural for me haha.
oh well today the power went out in the entire city so I was allowed to go home. without problem. I live in another city so I could just be on the computer and think about what happened the day before and things.
I dont know what happened at all.
I know so little and I experience alot.
also I still havent connected to my higer self. I cant pull it off. so I'll just wait it out meditating. mayeb in a few weeks huh :P
 
well I just came back from working out now. and I feel alot better after working out and writing this. thank you for your time reading this.