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18 October 2008 - 11:54am | 
Life Her-Story !..A Story ~ An Experience ~ HERSTORY ~ A Journey of Remembrance. 
I was born in London 1965, to mixed parents- My father A Lawyer, Nigerian from the Yoruba tribe and my mother Portuguese (Moorish/French Roots) A classical Fado singer and Founder of an international school in Nigeria.I am the second of four children with three brothers. Growing up I felt different and experienced the world and life through my own individual perception/perspective. 
I felt foreign and from a different world than this, of which I now know to be true, I felt inconsistencies in my body i.e.: being born in a male and female body.
I was brought up as a boy yet I sensed the dynamics in the world as a girl. I knew I was different and became aware of my androgynous being. Half male and half Female & Half Black and Half White.It soon became aware to me that my perspective was indeed alternative and extra ordinary. 
The insights and translation of my inner and outer world often went unnoticed, so I gradually realized that self expression that didn't fit others idea of the world, should be 'controlled' or 'Hidden' so as to avoid undue attention. I felt like an outsider, like I was visiting this strange world and viewing human systems with discerning eyes and often felt troubled by what was witnessed. 
I was very sensitive to my environment and felt a bit of a misfit and alien to this world. I was born with bowlegs painfully shy, I cried a lot and suffered from unannounced nosebleeds and certainly felt I was in the wrong body matrix. I played with my imaginary friends for hours on end - (They were light beings who exchanged creative and inspired learning's- I now call this - Being with myself!).
I would often be found sleep walking and have lucid dreams and encounters with Starry beings and I would often dream of flying and weightlessness in glorious Technicolor. Finding myself floating above my body whilst trying to get to sleep was a great past time of mine, moving from one part of the room to another became common place. 
These varied experiences provided an opportunity to explore life with deep sensitivity and awareness with a broad spectrum of understanding To "Over Stand" As I now know it to be.......
In my waking day I would be lost in my own thoughts and ideas and find ways to express them- Learning about Time and space through visual arts, music and spatial perspective and the development of Metaphysical knowledge. All of these things puzzled those around me.I often felt misunderstood and I would disappear into vast regions of the Universe where I would encounter my own space within this reality.
I was aware of the emotional dynamics within my family and being so sensitive (what I call 'Attuned Empathic Vibration'), I became the receptor of unexpressed and repressed feelings within the family. There was a melancholy design to my soul body - which I now embrace and channel though my creative pursuits. 
As a Child/ Adolescent I was over weight and often bullied because of my size, gender and overall demeanor.Feeling quite withdrawn with a really bad stammer, I found it increasingly difficult to even express my self with the spoken word, expression through my voice proved almost impossible at times. A real Paradox you may say - certainly a whole lot of magic and opposing questions and personal challenges.I seeked attention and validation from my family but often felt alone and dejected – though of course I experienced moments that were very loving, these moments often seemed short lived; needless to say I would escape mentally into my imagination where all was possible.
I have found it surprising that the most important relationships we have in this life such as husband/wife and mother/father are totally busked with no training or overstanding on how we influence one another on deep levels affecting our sense of self. Ironically we spend years programming and being conditioned through school and college to become a bus conductor, nurse or accountant! Hummm - Quite revealing wouldn't you say?Any way, I found school tough emotionally and academically nonsensical, suffering from dyslexia and other so called learning difficulties, So I would disappear into my own world where I could create and manifest my ideas and creative thoughts.
At the age of 13 my family and I immigrated to Africa, which became a new chapter in my life. I was Given the nick name "Alien" 
Which I fully walked with...lolI always felt and believed I was different yet this remained a personal journey of self-exploration and self-realization - Whilst walking and establishing my own unique perspective and mission code. People around me often did not recognize who and what I was, other than the boxes they had placed me into through their own belief systems and model of the world. Therefore I was never embraced as a complete, glorious, unique Metaphysical / Physical Divine Being...!This of course is as a result of the present Human condition.I found it tough to adjust to school life for what now became obvious (The de/re - programming of my higher directive) - hence fell 3 years behind in school having to repeat academic years. I went to an all boys' school and the students thought I was their female teacher not a fellow student - indeed a bizarre situation. I became the focus of unwanted attention due to this dichotomy and academically, I became acknowledged as a "Failure" within the socially acceptable /academic norms, this became a cycle that repeated its self time and time again. This did not help what was already a difficult period in my life, adjusting to the various dysfunctional controlling and in authentic (on a soul level) social order of that particular time and place. 
I've discovered that the pursuit of authentic self is absolute to ones journey of ones original template and mission in this lifetime.I've been a good actor – knowing what its like to be Black/White, Fat/Slim, Tall/Short, Geek/Beauty queen, Male/Female, Stupid/Genius, Gay/Straight, Saint/Sinner and a candle stick maker…so many colours/textures and shades.
I was an Alchemical Melting Pot, a paradoxical enigma - often made to feel on the wrong side of the fence! My light became hidden and not able to shine in fear of others projections, Yet I had the courage to continue to explore all these facets internally.
In the early 80's I came over to London to study Art & Design – thus starting my journey of self-discovery, transformation and acknowledgment. During this period I reinvented myself and began my life as I Am. My family found it difficult to understand and accept who was finally fully emerging before their eyes. 
For just about half my life, I have been living with HIV and in 1999 I had a cancer diagnosis which was an Aids defining Illness. In the early days of my diagnosis, they were plagued with fearful expectations and often an excuse to create further exclusion and unease due to the stigma attached to disease and there fore the person.
Since I was not my diagnosis, I still had a problem dealing with the mass fear based hysteria existing on this planet. This enabled me to deal with many issues surrounding my life and family life as well as the human condition. I believe this diagnosis was simply a manifestation of years of suppressed feelings showing it's self to me as Dis Ease! In this case a form of Cancer.This process simply reinforced my purpose, allowed me to work with people who were dying and offer a soul recognition and mutual healing energy.
All this deepened my connection to the love unconditional and the Universe and served as a conduit between the Macro & Microcosm, space and dimension, Physical & Non Physical and the relationship between our own duality in our quest for Oneness.In July 2008 I was given the all clear - ushering the end of an era.I am truly thankful
It is true that the human condition is such that one hides behind the various experiences one has in life, such the world is a frightening place, Aloneness or abandonment etc, this in turn creates false versions of reality by acting out the feelings of fear, shame, guilt, blame, anger, pity and the list goes on. I have made it a point to reverse this aspect of my programming to speak my truth and embrace this wonderful spectrum of life.
By not walking with my past in this sacred present moment. As a light worker I compensated by being extra good and selfless to make my self a good person, but this partly hid a multitude of feeling not good enough by the projections I held from the interpretation of my experience.
I was being inauthentic and gradually lost my vital ability to express my total truth and testimony, which is that of an extraordinary being. As We All ARE! One doesn't have to be behind bars to be imprisoned - And now I AM FREE! 
As a creative artist, it has offered me a great outlet for expression from music and various other activities, as well as my spiritual and intuitive healing/therapeutic work with others and myself. My writing on the Hue Man Condition started in my late teens - which I have called 'Sacred Whisper' 'The Missing Link"I am here to share my story and invite others to realize it is exactly that - A STORY an Interpretation - with the often false learning's, masks, and external measures used to create an illusionary persona so as not to deal with the deeper issues of a soul that is slowly freezing.The fact is I didn't need a diagnosis- I was already dying on the inside. 
Since dealing with my past - ending unresolved emotional contracts and merging my dualistic energies, walking the walk, I have found the integrity by honoring my eternal truth and divine word.I am re born.
And so it is...As an intuitive healer/counselor, creative artist, Writer/philosopher/metaphysical teacher on the human condition and the androgen concept to name a few.
My mission code is to bare witness to this period of Ascension and to serve as a transformatory channel for love, healing, crystal light and the evolution of our hue-man family. As I re-connect with my soul family across this planet, I am humbled and activated by the remembrance of our divine celestial ancestry and collective mission code. For we are all ONE! 
This wonderful emerging into the Template of ONE and the extraordinary gifts of personal transformation has enabled me to see, feel and experience life on multifaceted levels, delving into metaphysical and philosophical understandings and an overstanding of Universal/Human Paradox...! Which is simply my own inspired unique perspective. My Journey has allowed me to experience a very wide perspective of Duality and to Experience the human Conditions that hold us captive and can set us free.
My Intention is simply to share my journey without value judgement - "As I AM NOT MY STORY !" ...This is part of the process of NORMALIZING AND HUMANIZING The Human Journey through Ones Testimony....This is mine...It Starts with me and YOU ! 
For You are I & I am YOU We Are ONEWe are all extra sensory Divine Beings ! I GIVE THANKS 
I remember who I amAL-Æ-NU-RA
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