so I just felt like I needed to talk to you guys about what is happening with me these last few days since I wrote my last blog.
it feels like weeks and weeks have passed. that I have grown so much allready. even though it doesnt make sense to me. only some things. I do feel like this is the way to go
just last night I think I astral projected even though I had no intention of doing that. I allready fell asleep so I just spent the night watching myself sleep, funny huh. and why would I just watch myself sleep. well the truth is I was fascinated with looking at myself. I saw myself in another daylight sorta. I'm a brighter person all together.

I have also come in contact with my higher self. but its more like my higher self controls more of me then my 3D me, can you relate where I am coming from? I cant just ask this and that because I have found usually I wont get an answer. it is when I really need the higher self I dont have to ask. I just know and get knowledge.
and oh yeah rosalie if you are reading this yesterdays meditation really helped I have to thank you alot, you were quite something to talk to. almost intimidating thats how bright you shine. I got a card the balance card. and that was exactly what the meditation was about kind of. healing and balance, I saw it as a sign for me. so I will do this meditation alot more times. and I did it again last night before I went to sleep. it really helps me to just be with myself and only myself! so I can work everything out that need to be done.

and lately everyday I dont feel l feel like I dont judge anything anymore. its not like I'm trying to hold it back, its more like I cant bring myself to do it. I just go with the flow. maybe like air would ;)
 haha I got that from lightsoulja, well he likes to have water as his teacher. it made me think about the elements. if I was one which one would suit me the most and I choose air. since I am a very easy going person.

also just an hour before I wrote this I had to think about my past life maybe. I dont know why or what my past lives were. But I'm started to get information which I will share later in another blog hopefully soon.
I am a better person now all together better and stronger smarter and more aware.
and I know that all of you are all that allready even the onse that dont think so. I didnt think so about myself untill recently I dont have to think anymore because I can feel it and I just know it. I feel like I am higher now.
there are some people I want to thank right now:
lightsoulja: you give me alot of insight and make me think about things and make me want to try them out.
rosalie: you are such a bright star you give me energy everytime we talk. I also want to thank you for all your meditations that you give and will give.
serenitywhisper: you remind me that you dont have to take anything too serious but still think about important issues.
stareyes: again the same as serenitywhisper I have alot of fun with you in the chaos room I can resonate very well with all of you in the chaos chat.
candylily: the same as serenitywhisper and stareyes for you candy :P haha you make me feel good about myself and I like to chat with you about nonsense.
btw you are all crazy the people of the chaosroom lol.