As you know I am a fan of Jim Self - www.masteryalchemy.com. He posted this message from Lord Kuthumi which struck a cord with me. I hope it offers you a nugget of support as well.
Turning of the Tide
Message from Master Kuthumi
I am Kuthumi and I come forward on the rays of love and wisdom to greet each of you at this time and to bring unto you the blessings of focus, nurturing, understanding and divine wisdom. Greetings, beloved ones.
And it is with great joy and pleasure in our hearts as we hold you firmly in the heart of Christ and securely upon the hands of God. Beloved ones, this key date activation on the 11th of the 11th 2008 [November 11, 2008] is a very important one. This is a time of the turning of the tide. You find yourself within a place where everything around you is in a state of constant change. It appears as if nothing is guaranteed on earth but change. However, this perceived turmoil, chaos and fall is vital in order for all of you to move forward. The reason why this key date is so important between the 11th and the 13th of November, is the doorways to all the access points that the dark lord has used to gain entry to the world, will be sealed.
Now, the world I speak of, is the world of the fluid energy, the fluid paradigm. The time of darkness is coming to a close, and in this case, you are ending the journey through the dark age, which we refer to as the Age of Ignorance. The Piscean Age was very much that--the time where everyone expected to be told what to do, how to do it, and when to do it. Now, you are entering the Aquarian Age. This is the time of reclaiming your power and stepping into the knowingness of who you are and what your truth is. With these portals being sealed, you are released into a new timeline, a new experience, of what the Aquarian energy is all about. Between the 11th and the 13th [of November], it will feel as if a great part of you is disconnected. Perhaps you may even sense, or feel, some kind of disruption within yourself.
During those three days, the process that will be activated by us to disable the access points will require stillness, and the three days of stillness is the time where you journey within, into the place of yourself, and you will be shown some of your own strengths, and the wisdom that lies within you. Your mind will undergo a powerful release of the old paradigm, and the shift that shall take place will literally lift you from one place and place you within a new one. Therefore, we suggest that during these three days you spend time focusing on that which nurtures you, on that which brings about balance and support in your life. Focus on the inner qualities that allow this to unfold. You will also find that unsupported and ignorant belief systems will surface. However, they will not hang around for very long because of the presence of support you will be experiencing.
On the 11th, 12th, and 13th [of November], you will have within your midst the energies of myself, Lord Kuthumi. The entire Elohim will be focusing on this grand time of change. You will experience how the portals within yourself, through which darkness access to your greatest fears, will close. And, you will find that the realization of what fear is all about coming to the fore. It is vital that you truly understand the illusion that lies within, beneath, above, before, behind, and to each side of fear. There is a big difference between natural survival instinct and fabricated fears. We have given a tremendous amount of information over the past few weeks regarding merging with those aspects of yourself. Do not push these aside as unimportant. And, if you feel you are in a very strong place in your life with your fears, it does not mean that you will not benefit from that which we have transmitted to you already.
This gateway that is opening from the 13th of November is bringing in all the energies of light. The Gods and Goddesses, Lords and Ladies of light, step into the realm of the fluid universe and penetrate the 12 point chakra system within the open heart of every willing soul. And, by this, we mean the willing souls who are ready to fully face themselves, completely reclaim their power, and be confident about their mission to move forward. From the 13th of November, the energies change completely. A completely new signature will slowly be integrated into the DNA of your body. That integration process will take place from the 13th to the 21st of November. During that time, you will find yourself simply dropping that which you deem no longer an important part of your life, your process, your thoughts, your attitudes, and your beliefs. It is not something to fear. It will unfold with grace and ease. This is one of the most magical times of your year and is vital in the next phase of your preparation for 21 12 2008 [December 21, 2008].
Some of you are already aware of the fact that a number of us, the Ascended Masters, are moving into a much higher vibration as a result of our own progress, and we have been granted permission to bring those of you who are ready with us, not into the same realm, but you are being lifted into a higher realm than you have been in before. However, it requires an enormous amount of responsibility of the self, self-awareness, self-love, and self-acceptance, for now you are being groomed to emerge as the true beacons of light of the Golden Age.
From the 21st of December 2008 to the 11th of October 2011, your life path, your life mission, and your purpose, if you want to call it that, will take on a whole new meaning. It will explode open, like the blossom greeting the first rays of the sun. And, this is when you will understand why we have been so emphatic regarding mastering the self, by accepting self, loving self, taking full responsibility for the self, because this is where everything that you have learned must be applied.
In this new realm, there is a no room for the lower frequencies of human behavior. You are emerging as a more enlightened human being, and you create the new patterns. It is your destiny to do this, which is why you are doing this today. Today's transmission is a little different to what we usually do. And, what we want you to do are certain exercises which make up the complete picture of what we are creating.
The very first thing that you are to do is take as much time as you need to write down absolutely every regret you have ever had, and have, in your life. Write down every fear and negative belief system you have about yourself, about your health, relationships, money, family, your abilities, and creativity. (A minimum of four under each of those headings.)
Once you have done this, you are, then, to set those pages aside and imagine yourself as God or Goddess looking down upon you from the midst of the cosmos, from the realms of pure divine light and love. Take a few minutes to breathe this essence into your body.
Do not begin the next exercise until you feel the immensity of this power, of this light, inside of you.
Once you feel it, I want you, then, to write down every pearl of wisdom you can see from the God mind and the Goddess mind that you have gained as a result of your life experiences. I want you to want down every hope, every dream, and every joy that you have experienced in your life.
And then, I want you to write a letter to yourself from God/Goddess. In that space, God and Goddess will channel through to you. If you find your mind trying to distract you, stop. Take a deep breath in. Relax and affirm I AM God. I AM Goddess. And repeat it like a mantra for as long as you need until that strong feeling is back again and continue to write. Only stop when you feel everything has been said. Do not analyze the process. Do not stop and think about what you are writing. Let it flow. If there is a judgment that arises while you are writing, stop. Breathe in deeply, and do your mantras again and continue. This exercise challenges the old paradigm self to respectfully step down from the podium of ruling your life and to relinquish control to the higher aspect of the human self you are becoming. This is one of the most important exercises you will do for yourself at this time.
The purpose behind this exercise is to support the closing down of the access points that the darkness has used to access your fear. You can only release it. When you see what you have lived by, in relation to your fears, your beliefs and attitudes about yourself, your regrets become triggers that motivate you and your behavior, which often manifests as compromise, self sabotage, and self wounding, saying yes when you mean no, and vice versa. All of your fears, when you see what those fears are, and you remember my words at the beginning saying to you that everything within fear, above it, below it, before it, behind it, and to either side of it, is illusion, you begin to grasp the fact that the higher wise human has within its essence the ability and the tools to transmute all of that. This is one of your major initiations and tests, so to speak, as an alchemist. The alchemist must transform his or her own life before they can truly practice alchemy with others.
The alchemical process is the opening of the crystal heart--that place inside of you that contains the pure essence of the God and the Goddess—two divine expressions of oneself. The letter that the God and Goddess are giving to you contains truth. Your challenge with this is to accept the truth about yourself. Most people have difficulty with this because they, and you, have built your identities on the false beliefs and fears of your past. You have adopted them as truth, whether you can prove it or not, whether it is real or not, and you have said “This is who I am.”
I have one question for you. Are you still willing to live your life motivated by the fearful and judgmental projections of the external world, or are you ready to be your authentic self? The ego will challenge what God and Goddess has said to you, but that is not your problem. Your focus is on integrating this light, and this exercise is part of your journey after the Age of Darkness, Age of Ignorance, and into the new realm of liquid light. It is this light that now forms a kind of wall behind you like a support structure. And, it is this liquid light that you can lean on and trust that it will carry you and move you forward. Its energy is infinite and ever present.
This particular exercise will help you to understand and gain clarity--the understanding of what has motivated you throughout your life, and the clarity inside of you that those motivations have not been who you really are. Not only does this exercise prepare you for the second ascension wave, but, it also adds to the foundation of your new world, which we have called The Promise of New Life.
Lady Nada will assist you with this, for she is the over-lighting being alongside me for these energies of The Promise of New Life. You will be shown in many ways the importance of utilizing the pearls of wisdom you have gained, the importance of tapping into your source of joy, of gratitude, and the ability to believe in your hopes, your dreams, and your wishes, without attaching yourself to outcomes, or placing limitation by expecting something specific to unfold. Place your dream within the liquid light of the liquid love and trust that where you are will take you to where you need to be in a most beautiful, miraculous, sometimes even magical, and always graceful way.
Your experiences are changing beyond your wildest imaginings. You are penetrating a hymen, of sorts. It is this new world that will show you that all the teachings that you have been following have always been preparing you for that moment. You also realize that the inhibiting qualities of the ignorant human being was unable to, and is unable to, comprehend what lies beyond this hymen.
We use the word hymen specifically because it is virgin territory that you are entering. And this hymen, only you can penetrate, because it is a world that has been created by you, with you, and for you. There are billions of others that are working with a similar template, but there is only one unique entry point for each of you. But, the old access points must be securely sealed in order for you to penetrate this virgin world.
You will see how important this journey has been for you. You will also begin to realize how important all your challenges have been. And I suggest that once you have read, re-read and re-read the letter from God/Goddess again, that you then sit in gratitude for every challenge, for every tear you have shed, for every moment that you have wept being wounded and experienced pain and suffering, for it was all of that which has brought you to where you are, and it is this combined energy of emotional, mental and spiritual maturity that grants you access to the worlds of liquid light, liquid love and the fluid consciousness. You are entering a part of the Kingdom of Heaven that you have never entered before. Master Jesus said that the house of his Father has many rooms. You are about to embark upon a journey that guarantees you will never be the same again.
So, beloved ones, begin this exercise as soon as possible. I, Kuthumi, have already activated the energy grid around you that will support you through this time. We have also created a three dimensional crystal heart around you. Within this crystal heart is your true essence. Your personal guides, your doorkeeper guides, your healing angel, and master teacher will be contained within this crystal heart with you during this time. Use it to create the floor plan of that which you wish to plant, nurture, grow, and harvest in this new timeline. If it is at all possible, begin this process immediately after my transmission is complete. And celebrate a new dawn within the New World of light.
Beloved ones, you have earned entry into this realm within the kingdoms of Heaven. This is the last phase of the cycle. Not too long ago I said it is like running the final hundred meters. Give it all you have. And, do not, for a moment, doubt that you deserve anything less than the absolute best. Put your heart, your soul, your spirit, and your essence into this exercise. And I promise you, you won't regret it.
Be aware that the collective consciousness will be under added stress and strain during these three days of transition. Fear may also affect the collective consciousness because the economic situation in your world will become more strained, and it is this strain that feeds the fear of the collective. But, you should know by now that the dark energy will hold on with all its might and will make sure that as it goes down, it will take as much as it can with it. I am sure that you are not one of those things that plans on going down with it, are you? Very well.
Now, the light, this liquid light, is very important because it will come forward in some kind of physical manifestation as well. The liquid light contains the liquid love, so liquid will play an important part of the process. Besides giving your body enough liquid, a minimum of 2 liters a day, excluding any kind of beverage like coffee or any other beverage containing caffeine, because it dehydrates your body. Therefore, water and any other liquid, is going to support this process. All the way up until the 21st of March 2009, the liquid light and liquid love is going to wash through all those areas that contain the access points where the most traffic of darkness existed. The dark lord, however, has been given an opportunity to step into his light self, her light self, and you will see many amazing healings taking place. You will also see that the dichotomies of life are incredibly humorous.
And when you see, and I mean truly see, that life is, in fact, just a game, then, my precious ones, you are truly free. Never forget that you are a master remembering your truth in human form and absolutely nothing is stopping you from attaining full master consciousness in a human form--nothing other than yourself.
And so it is, beloved ones, that I leave you with these words and urge you to carry this exercise out, as much as some of you don't want to. If you find 101 excuses why not to do it, then force yourself to do it. The more you don't want to do it, the more you need to do it. This exercise is my gift of liberation to you.
Know that we are ever present, always guiding, always supporting and always protecting you. And may all always be you well in your world, in your journey, in anchoring peace in your heart, your mind, your body, your spirit and soul.
I AM Kuthumi, Cohan of the Golden Ray of Love and Wisdom and I greet and bless you in love. Adonai