hello people its been a while hehe.
I actually have nothing big to talk about here. I just felt like opening up this blogger to type out my thoughts I guess.
so I've not been able to write a blog for the whole ofdecember and a bit before that. even though december was an amazing month for me personally on this physical materialistic world. but on a spiritual level I was so lost. I think I still am kind of but I'm starting to get to my senses again which is always a good thing. I read some other blogs before writing this one myself to get me in the mood and spirit.
I have to confess I have been slacking lately. I blame it to myself my lazyness, though I have almost complely stopped watching tv I feel like I need to do more about my life. I feel like I can do to achieve things is to meditate. but I do i get reminded almost everytime I'm at school that I'm going in somewhat of a good direction, I get high grades even though I felt like I did nothing, when I talk to my classmates sometime I go out of reach.
you guys from lightworkers are really bright and understand most things I want to talk about at times and go beyond me. I love it, but at school its not the case. college is kind of depression in one way but good in anotehr way. it learns me things the school wasnt intended for me to be taught, know what I mean.
the thing now that stands out to me mostly is that I remember all my dreams when I choose to think about what I dreamed last night. for instance this night I dreamed about my brother. I watched him ride away on his bicycle from my room window. he had a girl behind him on his bike. even though he is single and drives a car this makes no sense to you.
but maybe he will find a girlfriend soon or something, who knows ;) some dreams are long some are really short. some are weird.
I'll tell you about a weird one I had. I have a mask hanging on my wall. like the masks you see on cannibal tribe shamans you know. so in one dream it floated of the wall and swarmed around me when I was standing in my room. I didnt seem afraid or anything. I just found it weird that it did that :/ apparently it was attracted to me. haha.
also I havent really tried to astral project anymore or practiced telekinesis alot. I just cant be bothered anymore. even though I would love to do both. I feel not ready and I feel like a dumb child sometimes. like I have to learn another lesson first before I can do this and that. I'm probably learning so much that I forget what I have learned so far. things shoot in my brain and go every direction filling me with nonsense. actualy thats pretty much it.
so after writing this blog I feel a bit better. maybe this will be my period to end my confusion or maybe make it a bit worse so I go mental and get a slap in the face with reality.
 
see yas