The economy is in the utter shambles. I think anyone can admit that by now. I read today that the state of California has stopped giving people their welfare benefits, student aid, and disability payments. My guess is that there are not enough jobs left to employ those people fast. Russia has it seems cut off the supply of gas to western Europe. People are all giving different stories as to why, but to me, why is not important. I don't even care if it was Russia's fault or not. I fear people are going to freeze in their homes. I have no idea what all the chemtrails that are being spayed actually do, but it worries me. The Earth is warming and the ice caps are melting. I have heard so much about the trouble now supplying food to the world. Not enough room and not very good conditions anymore. This one can't be confirmed but I have gotten the impression we are out, or are almost out of oil now. I left out a bunch of things that I know of now and of course there are likely many more I am not aware of int he world. And don't even get me started on the wars that are going on. It looks to me like things are really starting to happen now, and I must admit, I'm confused. After my last blog, in which I really had to think over my feelings toward "doomsday" I really think I got what must have been proof that the ascension is real. I woke up the next morning absolutely feeling this huge energy so strongly that I was not used to it's intensity and actually got a bit scared by it. I was moved onto the next step, and I think part of the reason it happened so soon, was to show me that it's all real again for sure. Yay. No longer do I doubt the ascension, but now I am forced to wonder why so many people are dying, and it's so likely many more are going to, while earth as we know it is still in 3D. I fear that money is pretty much going to be a hard to get thing and as nice as it would be to live without it, we still all need it to survive. We need heat for our homes and gas for our vehicles. I worry that the climate change is going to cause a flood or a tidal wave that will cause more problems.

In no way am I being down and low about this. In fact, I look up all of this, with a sense of sadness for all that I can't fix and wish I could. But I also look forward, with a sense of curious wonder. Someone up there has a plan. I know that and I trust it. I just wonder though how this is going to work. What is going on here. I don't understand how things that look so bad to me now and so dangerous, can be part of a divine plan, yet I think they are. They must be. I am determined to keep the faith here and trust that I will be surprised and amazed in the end, but in my 3D mind, it looks like the ascension will have to be moved up ahead of schedule to make this work. Has anyone happened to get any insight into and of this?