the first thing I needed to understand was that the mind is only a tool for my use. I had not realised it had taken over me and holding me in its grip. but then recently I came across more and more things that gave me the sign that I was not my mind. And I read this before at numerous places, but I never really got it.
before when I would read it I would think well. what am I then how can I see or know what is me. and I strangely starting looking for a point to have my point of view somewhere in space. lol quite weird.
but this week I think it was yes week. I did some meditations to shut down the endless chatter in my head, to find the "OFF" switch for my brain.
I did it.
and it was then that I realised my potential. I wish I had done this quite some time ago. thinking was never so clear I love it. I love it when I come across breakthroughs like this you know. when you just know you are on the tracks again when you give yourself that shoulderpat of goodjob mah boy.
well thats what I do. and I dont always do it like I'm sure many of you are thinking like this: "ah you should always pat yourself on the shoulder :)".
but I say no and I feel it would take away that special feeling of acomplishment if I would do that all the time.
 
Well anyway just wanted to let you guys know that I am now in control of the voice in my head. and I strongly suggest all of you lot get to it if you haven't already ;)