what do you say when you hav so clearly lost your temper, frightened someone you love with harsh words, loud words, yelling words, words that are full of fear...
& all you really want is---to be loved, to be validated, to know that your loving someone never ever makes you a fool no matter what.
how many times do you run over the cliff with your emotional outburst before you finally finally finally STOP at the edge or before the edge--
and say: it is OK, whatever it is---it is OK, BREATHE, remember who you are, Remember LOVE, Remember who you are......
your Roaring frightens everyone----even you!
Your Heart is beating so fast, so frantic...you are racing, racing to not be hurt---------that you run over the cliff & damage so much...
How now to keep it from happening again? How now to forgive yourself? How now to forgive yourself? How now to forgive yourself?
Because you know you just want to disappear. For a long time. To go into hiding. A blanket of shame.
Another reason to not love yourself, another reason to feel unworthy, another reason to feel undeserving of anyone's love...

please help me God with this part of me that is still so frightened, that feels so alone, so unheard, so unloveable, so forgotten...that it keeps shouting & lashing out hoping someone will hear, will know, will forgive...
show me the way God & help me be strong in due time so that i hurt no one, frighten no one, that I only walk in true Love.

~gl xo