How do we define ourselves? Is it by what we do, the money we have, or our looks? What else could we define ourselves by?
Who is a person but a spirit? What do we do besides live an experience here on Earth?
Why do we always strive for something we believe as ‘more?’ Why are we hardly comfortable in our own skin?
We are told so much in our lives that we must be one way or another, this or that, ultimately making ourselves feel insignificant and not enough.
I should feel comfortable in my own skin, being a kind and gentle soul…bringing happiness and joy to others. A person should take pride in being kind and respectful to other living spirits of any shape or form. Rather than taking pride and being happy with that, we have secret desires to be ‘more.’ To be what our human bodies define us as; man or woman.
Women are classified under homemakers, mothers, wives, daughters, sisters, caregivers, etc. we are somehow expected to fulfill many areas in a short period of time. If you do not birth a child soon after marriage, any more people wonder what is wrong with you. If you are a person who does not like to clean, people wonder ‘what’s up with that?’. If you are a person who takes charge and shows independence, people think that you are being ‘manly’.
Men, generally are expected to be that, men. Not a sensitive soul who takes care and consideration. Men are expected to be obsessed with sex, love cars, fixing things, and being insensitive. And those who are opposite of that, are looked upon as being ‘feminine’. Questioning their identities and looking towards more negative things to fulfill that ‘man’ part of themselves that they think they are lacking, when really they are not.
I sit and wonder sometimes, what is so wrong with us? What is so wrong with this world, this world that provides so many expectations and limitations on a person? When a person wants to break out of their shell, break out of the mold, someone is always standing there trying to shove them back in. Also, it’s not just another person, but we do it to ourselves. We stall when we start to come to the head of a breakthrough…fearful of the change, fearful of what others’ expectations will be bestowed upon them.
Personally, I’m tired of pushing myself back so much; I want to let my real and authentic self shine though. I’m finding frustrations with others who think they know who their authentic selves are, but yet they shut it away for the sake of what other people think.
If you are a person who is sensitive, embrace it, love it, and share it; quit trying to put upon yourself an image that is not yourself.
There are things you can do, to make your life easier and more fulfilling. Realize your limits, set your limits, and live with your values at your heart center. Your higher self knows what is authentic and real, go with the flow, go with your gut, go with your heart.
Quit the attempts to make yourself not what you are, because that is wasting precious time in this lifetime. There is nothing wrong with being sensitive, there is nothing wrong with caring; there is nothing wrong with being one with your emotions and sharing them.
People only go against another’s authentic self when they themselves are not authentic, when they are afraid to step away from their shell that they create and live life to the fullest.
At this time I have to learn and accept that sometimes I’m not meant to do more. I want to be more helpful to some people, to be more fully connected to others; but everything has a time and a place. Sometimes it is the little things that count more and make the biggest impact on the situation as a whole.
I become frustrated with my own limitations, finding them to be a burden, but perhaps I should look at it more as there are limitations for a reason. It is not my battle to fight, to win, or to lose. I just have a part, and I am to play that part and accept what I can get with open arms and an open heart.