... they become so much less continuously interesting and awe inspiring. That's a simple fact of life I think, but I never thought several months ago it could 3even happen in regards to ascension. It isn't that I am not interested in it or excited by it. Of course I am. It isn't even that I am bored with it. How could it even become boring? I don't think it could. It's only that as I have been with it for awhile now, and have learned that many things can change and always work out fine and that every change will lead to only more changes, I have lost a fair bit of the original feeling of amazement. It's still a wonderful journey but I feel like my perspective is changing. Months ago this was all brand new and had that wonderful but slightly uncertain feeling of newness. Like I had found something big and special, something that was new to me and had yet to be learned and discovered. Looking back I realize I must have sounded to people hear much like I think I sounded to myself... like an awestruck person staring at a new world with the wide eyed amazed wonder of a child seeing a lovely new surprise for the first time. likely a new surprise gift I was too immature yet to properly use but was determined to learn to use and work with anyway.

Now however I have been here, in the world of ascension and lightwork for a while and the newness has faded to a familiar look. it's not that i will ever get the hang of knowing what is going to happen next. No one ever could. It's unpredictable and still greatly unknown. It's just that I have simply started to grow more used to that unsteady, constant change and the uncertainly tempered with great hope excitement and promise. It is as though I have grown on my journey now from being that silly amazed child, to a maturing being who had finally snapped out of the state of wonder to realize that I can't just keep wondering in a state like that. I have a job to do here and a mission to help carry out. I have some real learning to do and some lessons to teach others. like all others who have seen that state of wonder and finally come back to understanding one a new level, I am both a student and an up and coming teacher. I have much healing to do in my own life, both alone and with help from others, but I can also help to heal others and help them to heal themselves. Much understanding has been reached but their is still much more to gain. I have learned to listen but now I need to learn to listen even more intently. I have yet to put the message I get into words to share with others. 3D earth has let go of many attachments to me that it once held, but there are still many more to work on.

An old phase of my awakening is passing by so fast and in a way I miss it. I miss the wonder and awe and excitement. I do however get to move on with the knowledge that more are awakening everyday and some will find there way into my path in their lives. Thus now that I am over my strange and wonderful and somewhat scary beginning, I get to see others in that same old state and pay it forward for the universe by helping them and listening to them. Never look back I say. Look only at the memories in my own mind with happy recollection but never look backward on the path. Keep moving ahead. The journey is only beginning.