i am mother to two girls this time around and find them to be extremely different in how they live, experience their lives. in this diversity, i am continuously challenged to broaden my view and get really nimble to switch to different points of perception. it's been very fun, definitely difficult and incredibly enriching to fill the role of mother to those two beings.
in my latest musings, i am seeing the older one attached to her desires, her passion and with her competitive nature, she will of course make things happen "her way". the other daughter, in stark contrast and 4 years younger, is one of little drama, deep thought, lots of observation and minimal attachment to anything earthly (she does enjoy food)...
seeing that there are certain passions in my older daughter's life, i got sort of used to supporting her in anything she wants to explore and find that my little one almost falls through the cracks, because she does not voice desires for exploration. although she has a brilliant mind, just like her sister, she does not thrive in school, does not know why she has to go there and perhaps, is just seeking a deep one on one relationship with her best friend.
my child has no passion, no desires, no attachment, everything is in flow with her, she is still very deeply connected with the "other side" and perhaps has trouble understanding the 3D world ...
more and more i come to see that it matters absolutely not what will become of her, it matters not what profession she will learn, it matters not that she just wanders through school, getting report cards from her teacher saying "i wish, S. would choose more challenging works"... it all matters so little when i hear my little angel sing with a purity that brings tears to my eyes, even if she just sings the latest TV jingle...it all matters not, when she smiles brightly, shining her essence through her beautiful eyes, or even when she goes to her room with the words: "mom, i think i'm going to go and cry a little"...

it's in full acceptance that this little one never had the phase of "terrible twos", never acted up at age 6, flows elegantly and with an attitude of surrender into the first "throes" of hormones. her inner beauty is unsurpassed, her ability for compassion immense. quiet as she is, her impact on me is so intense that it takes my breath away, unlike her big sister, who also makes big impact happen, in her addiction to drama - but that is just another path, just another way of experiencing this lifetime - it's all good.