This morning, we woke up to sirens and smells of smoke - in the vicinity, the Ridgeline Montessori Public Charter School my children go to was burning. A suspicious fire is being investigated. The one weakness this point of light had was a "home" - They are renting a building from the local school district and are bursting out of their seams because now word got around that this is a "one of a kind" school, a really good one.

I dare not think of all the damage that has obviously been done by fire and subsequent water to all the wonderful Montessori Materials - the building itself was rather old - worst of all, the continuation of this small school is in jeopardy, obviously, because there is at present nowhere to go.

I am writing this with an inner struggle to stay surrendered in "whatever happens is as it is supposed to be" and with an utter exhaustion "can't they (the not so kind people who started the fire in this case) just leave us alone?" - obviously they can't leave the light alone, they HAVE to lash out, as their level of comfort and ignorance is being threatened by the good that comes out of this school. It's a SCHOOL for goodness sake! It's where my children spend most of the year! The thought wants to creep in that OMG what if they have to go to a regular public school ? - This is one of those moments where tons of money would be a quick solution, I'd give it all to find a building for Ridgeline. There are so many wonderful families and exceptionally gifted children !

That turmoil can only find solace in the ancient, deep knowledge of "just endure this too - it will turn out a blessing at some point" - I just can't see this blessing at this point in the story. Personally, I'm sick of enduring the drama of light and dark, I'm sick of waiting for the world to catch on, I'm tired and worn out and just want to go home - perhaps that exhaustion will finally allow me to let it all go - i mean ALL...

Thanks for reading my ramblings this far.
Claudia