so. I've been getting alot of outside information that wants to get inside of my head, I let it pass through but I dont really want to abosrb it anymore. I feel like I need to think about some things. but I dont really know what.
at times I feel like my concious mind is empty and its quite easy to make it empty but I know my subconcious is busy with all sorts of stuff.
I am also very aware of the thoughts and emotions I project towards the world. I'm trying to make that less and less.
I feel like I want to merge into myself. I dont mean this in a detaching from the world kind of way. but like I want to be a rock just lying on the ground.
 
I feel like I should experience that for a while.
maybe I just activated some kind of mechanism or something and I'm trying to protect myself from everything thats projected at me now. thats what it feels like sometimes.
is anyone else having this?