Yesterday evening I started to feel very anxious again. I don't know why but for many months now I have been having attacks of anxiety over, of all things, religions and spiritual truth. it leads to all kinds of trouble trying to deal with because unlike trying to solve anxiety caused buy something common such as an overdue bill or a letter that I forgot to mail, this has no concrete and clear solution and thus no way to remove the source of anxiety. last night, having another of my lately rather frequent attacks of worry and anxiousness over the very fate of my soul after I leave this plane of existence, I decided to do what I have done several times before in this state. I prayed to whatever the divine may be perceived as, to please show me the truth somehow. I have over the past months gotten a couple of little bits of this needed truth and I feel like am very slowly being led to put it all together. Last night I once again asked that if I was meant to find any, could I please receive a little more guidance. I talked for a short while to my own understanding of the divine and of course felt much better. As I drifted a little closer to sleeping in my bed, I sensed a very overwhelming sense of energy around me. It was certainly not negative at all, just very powerful. An awareness that I knew to me my higher self, told me something about moving into a higher light. I just went of to sleep and then actually forgot all about it.

Today I decided to take a short walk and while walking downtown, I very suddenly and unexpectedly recalled a dream I had last night. It had seemed when I woke up this morning that I had not dreamed at all. I now recall however dreaming that I was in a room talking with a certain character that I can't remember at all. I don't even know now if it was a male or a female. I do recall though that he or she, was explaining prophecy to me and said that all the true prophecies of the past have had the potential to come true or not to, based on human thought and action. Many, he told me have not yet come up, but the same rule applies. We do not have to accept anything that is given to us by prophets of centuries ago. Many could have already come to pass and caused bit problems, but they did not, only because we refused to let them be so. I learned form this dream character that the prophesies thought and fallowed by the religious believers are no exception. Everything is changeable and we are never powerless to chart our own course as to how things go.

I now understand that while prophecies of things to come, were never a cause of anxiety for me, I was still, in a strange, wonderful and unexpected way, given a very possible clue as to my much quested after truth after all. I'm not sure how this fits in to it yet. I'm really not. But I do have another clue I can one day use to piece the truth together for myself. I am still very anxious actually. I have no idea how this started, why it had to be me it's happening too, or when it will cease to be a problem, but I do know that I will figure this out. I have for months felt like I have a task, to put some big bit of information together and i feel like I am one step closer some how. was it all just a simple dream? I'm not sure. I can;t be sure it wasn't, but I do sense how much I have been given through it. I think somehow it was more that just a common dream.