I dont post here often these days. But I thought id offer some advice. Completely unrequested, but something I have to say nonetheless.

Take off the training wheels.

Stop listening to channels, and ask your own guides. Talk to the wind. Do a reading. Stop looking outside you, to voices that silence your own. You are the centre on the equation of perception, so be involved.

Stop attending courses in self-healing, unless that impart practical knowledge or techniques. Self-help ---> yourself. You know your own pains, your own weaknesses, so work on them. Cleanse your own aura.

Instead of channeling, courses and gurus, try this: read the ancient mystic texts. If you dont have the ears to hear this, modern simple english will make things no clearer. (in fact things will be more muddled). Cultivate your own channelling abilities, by free writing, meditation, commune with guides or nature. Most of all, less talk, more focus on being -> the day to day.

Stop visualising a new ferrari. All your doing is making yourself sick that your not richer. Start visualing a unconditionally blissful you.

The egyptian book of the dead (one of those older mystic texts I mentioned), says this peice of pure wisdom "all help is self-help".

We can forever search for something "over the horizon", and never find it. The magick is not over the horizon, it is within your souls.

All answers, all methods, all knowledge is in you, and has been also restated millions of times over thousands of years.

And most of all, dont wait for some future external event to claim your own knowledge and happiness. World utopia or visits from aliens will not cure the existential pain of the ego.

I find myself in the odd moment of this sort of weakness. I might do a reading, or listen to some occultic teaching, or person. You know what, everytime i do that I lose faith in my own abilities - and ignore what the self already knows.....

May you always find your way back to the path,
Drael