I began to intentionally meditate in October of 1998.
When I began I experienced a lot of noise, intrusive thoughts, errant energies showing up and so on.
I picked up a few different techniques from friends, family and also some of my own techniques to become meditationally proficient.
As much as I enjoyed meditation and experienced many things within it, there came a point where meditation was no longer possible for me. That was about the year 2000.

I had become so proficient at attaining an instantaneous harmonious state of conscious connectedness to my expansive Self, that everything began to change for me when I attempted to meditate.

I would attempt to intentionally go within My Self to meditate and within seconds the energy grew so strong within, that I could not go within, without that which was within, exploding out of my body.

What I now know and I am aware I have achieved, is a constant state of meditational presence in each and every present moment of now. The present moment connectedness, to My collective conscious Self, is so expansive, so expressive, so explosive, so untapped, that when I intentionally connect with it, through meditation, I cannot hold it or contain it or even stand i it. When I intentionally attempt to begin a meditation like I used to be able too, within 2 seconds, my energy explodes through me and my eyes open and wham it is over. How many times have I tried to meditate again. Well, while I am writing this is the last one.

If any other has experienced anything like what I Am sharing, please let me know, if I Am the only one!

So what I now know is true for me is, I have opened the door to my expansive energy of Self. But when I attempt to open it further, I cannot contain the energy that flows through. It is like a hydrogen bomb in it's proportions! So to maintain and be in a place and state of balance within my Being/BEing, the flow of energy is now in every Present Moment of Now, flowing through me proportionally and appropriately to the each moment, possibility and opportunity in each specific quantum second of my life.

I Am so intertwined within the Present Moment Energy, I virtually never look past today, or look back at yesterday. I know tomorrow everything will work out and yesterday is over.

In My Constant Space of Harmonious Connectedness to My Self, I have achieved Meditative ONEness with My SELF!!

Thank You for taking time in this Present Moment to read the thoughts I Am sharing!
Just Me
Rick