I feel like total crap. It's like I'm trying to drive uphill in neutral.
I haven't been meditating, I haven't been keeping positive thoughts, I haven't
been doing a dag on thing to elevate my vibration. I feel like a back slider.
I am super frustrated. I am stuck, stuck, stuck in this hermit thing and while
I wish I wasn't- I can't seem to pull out. People are constantly calling me trying
to get me to go do this or that. I don't want to. I let my phone ring and ring -
and I don't care.

I see alot of numerical messages. I don't try to decipher them. In short, I have
a bad case of the blahs, and am very down in the dumps. It's becoming increasingly
difficult to filter truth from the lies in my life and I'm swirling in a twister of
confusion and chaos. I swear I hope this will be over soon. Big problems letting go
of old patterns and habits. I think this is the source of it all. I'm upset with myself.