So its raining today.. i love the smell of fresh rain. all the plants and trees glissting with beads of rain drops. Its chilly. im fiinally going to be able to wear pants.. On friday my work was cancled due to triple digits. Saturday we were checking to see if we were being cancled due to showers. the weather is kinda creepy.. not to many people really question anything.

On a daily basis i think i knock on at least 95 doors. After 95 doors i only registered 3 and mackenzie registered 4. so 7 people. I think only like a quarter of those doors even answered. Then the ones whom answered that actually spoke with us was even smaller. a lot of people tell me so matter of fact "I dont vote!" Those three words all roll in my head after they say that. both of us always ask the same question. "may we ask why?" our own curiosty? a way to try an engage them? blindly they accept their lives as it is. Mackenzie registered a 61 year old asian man yesterday. He has never voted in his life. when we knocked he said i dont vote! again the question formed. this time from macs lips... may i ask why? she says kinda timid. he begins the same words as each other beautiful soul does. It doesnt matter if i do or if i dont. She begins talking to about the csu. how they are not even enrolling a freshman class in 2010. how she is being personal being affected by the cuts. he doesnt like the people. i say well how about all the props that go through and continue to cut our rights as human beings? Or how they choose to spend the peoples money. why do some neighborhoods have side walks and some dont? the ones with side walks vote. then mac starts talking about the parks and due to budget cuts all bathrooms are closed. Personally i say, we are both human and no matter what title you have we all deserve to live, and if enough of us join together, we can take our lives back. but it starts with us and you and your neighbor... We are the people and if we unite something will change...

So yeah we get some... but there are so many whom have the biggest blinders on. they refuse to even make a connection with two beautiful women who knock on their doors with the biggest smiles. radiating with such love and understanding. So many pull back from contact with us. At first i thought it was because we were gay, total insecurity on my part, with very little having to do with that. very few out of the many. that is pretty cool. but the more we do this the more comfortable we get with the whole idea of bringing light with a front of registering voters.
Since i got a job there, mac got hired, then mac and i found this beautiful beautiful guy Vou. he is friends with a friend of mine, randomly a door we knock on vou pops his head out and asks how he can get a job doing this. we take him down as a voulunteer, then within like a couple weeks a postion opens and vou is there. Then we just got our friend Jess hired and she is also family here at lightworkers. Oddly enough two amazing people came in 2 weeks after mac and i started working at this place. they are from long beach. So there is 6 of us on this crew going door to door sharing and amazing energy with the people of modesto california. And then another girl from the crew is going through her transformation. and has been hanging out with mac and i outside of work... She is absorbing us.. So 7 with an awesome boss... the guy in charge of this little operation...

Honestly the job i am doing i would have never imagined myself doing...um.. EVER! but here i am...Utlizing such an amazing storefront. we are all the front lines... and we are moving ever so gracefully. I feel so connected these days...im following the guidance within... And am bringing me energy to everyone involved witht he task that has came to the forefront. I understand what is happeing on such a deep level... yet even with mac and jess and vou and the other three... they have opened to their awareness as i have... yet we all are teaching each other something amazing. talk about all of us being masters of something and have appeared together on the physical realm. i am absorbing all of them as they are absorbing all of me. this crew is the most diverse crew i have ever had the honor of working with. of course we have our owns bumps we are going through within a group. balancing the insecurties and unbalanced energies... Im learning that i see diffrently then everyone. i see the true beauty in each of them...not allowing judgment to pass through...

I guess i just want everyone to know. that again i have grown. And something beautiful is happening in the town in which i was born...I ask the universe to continue illiumanting my path as i continue to evolve to be all i can be... and to help lead with my love and my light...to continue sending light through me..

love light and peace
Shelly