***Again the answers went from "I" to "we." Must be a new thing which is okay with me as I've said before,"I is We is You is Me is Us."***

Dear God, Got a minute?

Several.

You sure about that? You just took a risk saying that to “me.”

In that case I will change my answer. Several…100 fold.

Whoa, you are one brave…energy.

Not brave, but instead Infinite.

Okay, you “asked for it.” I am feeling really sad (nothing new) and once again like I am just way too much for any and everyone. I’ve joked that I could talk the ears off of a cornfield, but it’s even worse than that. I can emote people to feeling they are on the verge of insanity or spontaneous combustion I think. Been that way for as long as I can remember. Hey, who knows? Maybe lifetime after lifetime I am way too much. Why is it my “path” to be the weirdo, the oddball; the one who just doesn’t ever fit in anywhere?

Ah, but you do. You do fit in any and everywhere, and most specially those places you feel you do not. For in those places you are doing exactly what you came here to do.

Okay, I know what you’re getting at. “Opening them up, teaching them it’s okay to feel, to express, blah, blah.” I get that, and I’ve accepted that. But do you have any idea how painful and lonely it is to be the one who no one understands? Or how can I say this? The one that…okay, I’ve “chosen” to be a certain way for a reason that is good for them and their journey, whatever that may be, but when does it feel good FOR ME?

How would you feel if I told you never?

Pissed.

How would you feel if I told you the answer of “never” does not necessarily mean what you think it does?

I would then ask you to elaborate.

*waiting*

*waiting*

*still waiting?*

Uh, like, hello?

You said you would “then ask” me “to elaborate.”

Very funny. Where is the mind reader who usually shows up to answer?

Here, but wanted you to ask. Wanted to be sure you really did want me to elaborate. Wanted you to be able to look back and see that you did indeed ask so that there would be no question as to whether or not you really wanted to hear. That out of the way, the answer of “never” to that question is not as literal as it may sound. Right now “good” is where we, meaning you and I, are on “different pages” as you say. You are not aware just yet how “good” it does feel for you to be exactly who you are, where you are, and with those you feel you are very different from. The truth is you are not different at all. THAT is what you came here to learn, share and teach. Did you hear me? YOU-ARE-NOT-DIFFERENT-AT-ALL.

I heard you. And while I know exactly what you mean and where you are going, I think I will let you go ahead as if I didn’t. Obviously I need to hear it again.

I believe this is true, so here we go. You are not different at all, and THAT is why you have chosen each and every single person and situation in your life where you feel you are running circles around them just being you. You have chosen those who you know at a soul level are like you, in order to bring it out in them.

Okay, let me stop you there to ask a question. Well first of all to share. It’s not really “fun” to be this person while many are not aware that we are the same when it comes to all that matters, which would be feelings (what I am talking about) and the need to express them in order to be whole and healthy. It is not “fun” or easy to be the pain in the ass to so many who “believe” they do NOT want to live their lives as such feeling beings. So what is the point? You realize too that I am not saying I am better than, or my way is “thee” way, right?

Yes, we do, but it is “thee way.” Being and feeling all that you are, is “thee way.” Feeling comfortable enough in your own skin to not only acknowledge, allow and honor all that you feel, but to love yourself just the same as well as others is “thee way.” You all forget at times that that is why you came here-to experience that which cannot be experienced on this side. If you could only remember the joy you felt when you realized you would be able to experience a myriad of feelings, very different from the way it is in spirit form, you would then see that it does indeed “feel good” no matter what you think it feels like to be all that you said when you first came to me today. When you decided with much excitement that you wanted to travel on this journey of truth, expression and feeling, you looked forward to each and every moment, encounter, up and down, knowing that no matter the “label” in the human experience, the feeling would be nothing but good, because it was a feeling. Are you with me?

Very much…very much…

Ah, good. As you know, and have shared over and over again with others, there are no bad feelings. So if that is the case, how can there be times or situations where you feeling more than others, or making others uncomfortable, or maybe even angering some because of something you have expressed from the heart about how you are feeling deep inside…how can they be bad or mistakes? I never said mistakes. But we are very aware that many times you feel you have made the “mistake” of trusting you could be fully who you are. Isn’t that how this conversation started?

Yeah.

*big sigh…and thinking…*

Can we stop now? I am getting what you're saying, but it is kind of exhausting me.

YES! Perfect! “I” am “exhausting’ you! Do you think I am now going to go away, cry, wish I never shared from the heart and vow to never be who I am again? Do you think I will now decide that I am way too tired to be who I am anymore and do my best to be someone else even if it kills me?

*smiling…and teary-eyed*

I get it. Again, you have blown my mind by spelling it all out to me. Once again you have taken me to a completely different place then when I first sat down and I am so touched…that you love me that much to take the time. Thank you. I’m still feeling exhausted though and want to continue another time if we can?

Sure. I would enjoy that.

Can I say one more thing?

Shoot, but I know exactly what is coming and I am laughing already.

*me giggling* Shut up. You talk too much. You’re exhausting. Can you say anything in 50 words or less? Sheesh. *laughter*

Boo hoo, wa wa.

*more laughter*

***To be continued***