Who am I?

Okay! Here I go... Back in November 2007 is when I joined Lightworkers, the time I decided to work on spiritual growth. Lightworkers was somewhat a new community and all - so I enjoyed the many warm welcomes of other members. Looking back at that memory feels nice, it was like there was some sort of unique intuitive ring to it. From other websites that work on any other higher center stuff, there were people who saw Lightworkers as being a bit corrupted. I learned from their judgment as well and adopted a trait of seeing through some of the member's faults in the community. It always sparked me up to just stand up and say what I want to say.

From that experience, I believe in that constructive anger is what can motivate us towards to do what is necessary. But really, I believe this community has a number of good-hearted individuals who are learning... just like me. Geeez, there were a lot of growth going along while in my absence from Lightworkers. Most of my beliefs were smashed and perspective changes.

Before anyone starts labeling me, I have to make this clear:

I lack in having any awakened marvelous psychic gifts. It's been two years and not anything crazy happen. You know how an alien can beam into my bedroom and started doing tons of crazy stuff? Or how angels appear outta nowhere and start doing crazy stuff? Or how bigfoot appears at your window and start doing crazy stuff? I don't get those. Maybe back then when I was really young I had experiences with a shadow person... Now that thing did crazy stuff!!! But that's about it.

Without dreams, there is no value in a human.

About my past life, I'm still not entirely sure what is the truth behind who I am. Is it alright to feel human? I believe that humans are quite a special race because of how horribly limited they are. Humans are so limited but the fact that they could dream... is what I like about humans. To be human isn't just about experiencing human emotions but to use these emotions to grasp their dreams. When you're human, you are a double-edged sword that is gifted with great resilience. Keep sharpenin' and get shinier. I like the luster of the sword's blade as it radiates light.

Power corrupts a few but weakness corrupts many.

Navel chakra. My yellow. Respect the ego. Because what I found out that the ego is actually the hot seat for your conscious spiritual growth. If you allow unnecessary barrages to the ego, you could find yourself stunting in spiritual growth. I mean it. Respect the ego as a part of you. In fact, I don't recommend seekers to experience through a path of constant emotional pressure. There's a better way to learn, well, it works wonders for me. Less pain; more fun = greater learning.

Best if you don't wallow yourself in negativity, because you'll be stuck in a black spiritual vortex. Eeeh... Doesn't sound clean, eh?
The last place I wanna learn at is in a spiritual toilet...

What is my mission?

I believe in my spiritual warriorship. I definitely find fighting necessary in my path. Because if you think about it, fighting for higher good is to find the truth in challenges. And what greater learning comes from fulfilling fun challenges? Learning is fun, and I believe it's suppose to be fun. To live is to learn and to fight is to find.

I think the future is going to be one huge challenge rather than a nice soft transition. You know what? Many could say, "Oh let's not change the world, we're just here to learn lessons and get out." but what the hell!? You realize heaven is what needed to be seated down, because it's not something we could simply shut ourselves out into. You could do that but in my eyes... that lacks character.

Change the world. Innovate it. Stand up for it. Make it a better place.

I dream of becoming a leader of the future.

I'll continue wondering and the truth will be revealed. Is that it? My destiny?

At least I could die as a hero rather than dissolve like any other ghost. And I wish I could find more others that relate to me on this. Ah bummer. I find life to be one huge irony... To befriend death is a great way to live. No. There's no ego on this... I am so grateful that I could say that I am already dead, but I'll never be defeated. I'll never give up on myself even if I die.

I know this blog sounds friggin' ambiguous or... maybe not. What's your mission? Stand forth and state your aberration.
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I am Spi, the Yellow and Green ✩