I had been thinking days ago on how to write this blog. Everyday I added up “new” words. First of all I must add the fragment from an older post:
 
“I won't write the whole story because It would take a long time and I would have to translate it but it goes something like this:

There was a small city where only wells lived. The wells communicated with each other through their curbstones. Wells began filling their curbstones with material stuff. There came the time when they could no longer fill themselves due to lack of space. So they began expanding themselves wider.

A small well that lived at the edge of the city thought about expanding downwards. It began digging and taking all the material stuff away and something amazing happened. It found a subterranean river that communicated throughout the city and to the ocean. Later on, another well decided to try the same and they could now both communicate through the river. They found peace and a very profound communication. The difference is that they looked for a new way of communicating through the inside.”

This one may go for the ones who are feeling lonely and afraid to love again. This is more like a synthesis of what people have been learning  and most important: my own experience. As I said before, I am very devoted to the story of the well and everyday I remember the story.
 
Maybe one of the most important reasons why I decided to take the risk of going back home knowing I would centainly spend too much time alone if not with my family was this: to put myself in some sort of quarantine (well…that’s how I call the spiritual path and ascension process because it is mostly about clearing the karmic record, healing and become empty, just as the well of the story did). And now I have no doubt that it works!!!
 
I’ve read some blogs of some guys who are feeling very lonely and others who lost their beloved ones and, as a consequence, are feeling vulnerable with a lack of confidence. This is something normal that happens to everyone and no one has to be ashamed of feeling anger, hopelessness and sadness. It is necessary to let these feelings flow…and go. If you feel you can’t find someone who may become a substitute for the ones who left, don’t even try it because you don’t have to and there s no such thing as a substitute. Some people may tell you to open again to all possibilities, but there comes a time when it is essential to spend time alone…to discover the LOVE FOR ONESELF.
 
I came to the following conclusion: in some cases, while I was willing to share and have a real communication with others, some where imposing their limits, their own fears and in the end, what we receive is only some kind of CONDITIONAL love. Some people limit themselves throughout their lives because they are not willing to have a real commitment, because they are afraid. We must show them we are not like them, and our love has no limits, because first of all we love ourselves and we can exceed that capacity we had previously known.

(A very old edition I made years ago hehehe   "Close the doors...so the past won't come in")

If you FEEL like you've just received an emotional kick in the gut, then you have just received an emotional kick in the gut. No analysis needed!
-Amanda Ford
In the past we saturated ourselves with work, people, addictions, situations, just to deny what had to be healed and we added so much to the list every time. Now is the time to empty the trash can.
 
THAT my friends, is the essence of the story of the well. After closing all doors of the past behind, you will start fresh. We must enjoy this time to learn how to nurture ourselves, stop for a moment and forget about the outside. In the past, we learned along with our soulmates what LOVE WASN’T. So…obviously it hurts. Mostly because we didn’t know how to love and we didn’t receive love in exchange. To love others and receive love, we must first learn to love ourselves. Then, you will be ready to give and receive in a healthy and balanced way.  We are still facing some third-dimensional situations. Challenges are not over yet.
 
While being in this time with a sense of emptiness and feeling inert, one MUST evaluate the following concepts:
 
1.       Am I willing to be honest?
2.       Am I willing to be loyal?
3.       Am I willing to be open?
4.       Am I willing to give unconditional love?
5.       Am I willing to share my time with others?
6.       Am I willing to put aside excuses?
7.       Am I willing to be willing?

We must be first what we want to receive. Be like the well that feels the flow of the river inside.
 
Ok, this is my last blog for a while. I am leaving my friends, I don’t yet know for how long, it depends, so I will keep my account. Why? Because I found something important, something that does not make sense to me, some incongruences and inconsistencies. I am FEELING there is something that is not right, and I have a theory. The more I think about it, the more ironic I find the situation. This morning I told my mother about those things I am feeling and she confirmed half of my theory, because she had a dream, a very odd one. She didn’t know about the situation until I told her and I am connecting the dots.
 
Therefore, I am going to make an experiment to prove my theory. It may take a long time, I don’t know. What I found these days is that my intuition is now more developed and I can feel people’s energies and intentions. I am going to use my own tools to solve this riddle. For you, the main clue is in the questions above.
 
I wanted to post along with this blog my new painting, which is about the well, but it’s not finished yet.
 
Wish me luck. I am happy about my findings!!! Anyways, I will miss you…
 
Thank you very much my light friends. Thank you for adding up to my knowledge more about what love IS and what love ISN’T.

(Life is like a road, mistakes are made in order to learn the real path.)

...and remember, the GAME IS NOT OVER YET!!

Love and blessings

Karla

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