Interesting day yesterday. Decided I was gonna cross that line, take that step, make
a giant leap in awareness. Yeah, sometimes I actually think like that...like I'm the one
running Universe...or at least my section of it. Never actually seems to work out that
way though...all the intending and wanting in the world doesn't do much to speed up this
process. HA...patience...my old bugaboo...showing up again, why am I not surprised? Ego
and 3D personality self have been duly humbled...yet again.

I just love it when I forget who I am for awhile and start trying to push the river. You'd think that
62 years of lessons woulda finally sunk in...naaahhh. After a little while of backing and
froing with ego and co. I finally realized I had to 'get nekkid' for this exercise. Leave
every part of who I've always thought of as who and what I am right on outta the picture.
Leave everything that isn't I AM behind before I could experience who I AM truly is. So I
went through this whole little...um not sure what to call it exactly...experience ...will
have to do.

I was all set up for the big leap...I had just done a really nice guided meditation someone, I
forget who now, posted yesterday...I was primed and ready...this time I was gonna go all the
way...not chicken out. I moved into a nice meditative state and just listened and looked,
waiting for whatever was gonna happen to happen. All the while I'm consciously accepting, releasing,
surrendering...flowing love and gratitude. To be honest I was pumping out every tiny bit of positive
energy I had...you know, trying to make a good strong connection.

Now I dunno what my 3D mind expected, or anticipated, but what I got was pretty unexpected. First off
it bloody well hurt...physically hurt. That really surprised me. My lower legs, between the ankles
and knees started getting these really sharp pains, like electric shocks...strong ones. I would battle
along with it for awhile, but I could only take so much, then I had to switch frequencies. Turn it
down for awhile. At first every time I switched frequencies, I'd have to start all over again when I
tuned back in, but after a few times I could sorta take up where I left off.

On the inside I was seeing this picture of Universe...you know, the normal 3D view of Universe, stars,
planets, galaxies...what we call outer space. It looked like it was all tucked into a box...it was
square or rectangular in shape...inside something. OK, that was pretty neat...but not something I
hadn't seen before, so I pushed on.

Then I was back with the Planet Earth. I sensed that I WAS her and she was me. It was like a review
of a merger that happened awhile ago...touching bases with our oneness or something. Then, really
fast forward, I saw the solar system, galaxy...looking from the inside out. I could 'see' the
Universe the way Mother Earth sees it...then as the solar system sees it, then as the galaxy sees it.
I guess galactic consciousness is as far as I've ever gone before...because right here is where that
line...that milestone...or whatever it is, is found. The line between galactic consciousness and Universal consciousness maybe?

Everytime I'd start to get a glimpse of myself as the whole Universe those sharp pains would begin
to scream up my legs, and I'd have to back off again. This seemed to go on for ages, but I suppose
the whole experience wasn't more than an hour. Anyway, after a while I could begin to feel myself
inside the box, the container, that Universe is in. I could be aware that I had edges, that there
was a me and a not me. The edges weren't between my present incarnated being and Universe, it was
between the Universe itself and something else. Something beyond Universe. I WAS not separate.
I WAS in there, in it and of it...but I could not see what Universe sees. The best I can do is feel
myself as part of Universe, but my eyes haven't opened yet. Maybe Universe isn't fully awakened.
itself.

Then I had this really deep understanding that, yeah...well, hey, that's what this whole ascension
process is about...Universe waking up to itself...it's authentic self...just as we are. If you
check out the Mayan Calendar information it's really easy to see exactly where we've been and
where we are headed. As I understand it 2012 is when the Planet enters Universal Consciousness.
God/Universe is having an ascension process...and we...3D Earth Humans are like cells in that body,
each of us trying to bring our full quotient of light into ourselves so that we feed the enlightment
of Universe. Now, THAT'S a serious responsibility.

How does it feel to feel yourself as the entire Universe? Well may you ask...whether I can describe
it or not is a whole other thing. I suppose each of us will perceive it in accordance with our
own 3D mind interpertations...you know, see the picture that we can best understand. I mean it's
all codes and symbols anyway, for something that exists beyond what we know. It will reveal itself
in ways that our personal encodement will understand. It would be sorta irritating to get there,
get the info, and it's in some other language. Universe has it sorted all out so we each receive
exactly what we need to see for the understanding and knowing.

OK, being a part of Universe, in my personal mental movie, was feeling like God's body. Not inside
the mind, or the heart...couldn't see or feel what Universe sees and feels, I was just part of the
'body'. I got this picture of the entire body of God/Universe was made up of billions of what we
would know as cells here in 3D and WE ARE those cells. For just a brief moment, just a flash, I
thought I felt how it feels to be God/Universe. I took that to mean that in exactly the same way
part of our ascension process is cellular awareness...so is it happening for Universe itself.

Now what? I have absolutely no idea. I am feeling completely gobsmacked...spinning around in
mental circles. I'm back to two sides of me again. Who I am alive in this 3D body in this
3D world...but enriched, aligned with all the aspects of self I've merged so far...and the TRUTH
of who I really AM. I don't know whether to wander off to a quiet place and go explore more of
Universe...or just tuck away this magical experience...make it a one off. Yeah, I went on that
ride...exciting, but not sure I wanna go again.

Maybe it's a good day to do some grounding to Mother Earth. Not grounding my true self, just grounding
the 3D body...strengthen up my connection so the pains won't come back...and give it another shot. It
was fairly amazing. The spirit is willing, but the poor body is taking a real battering in all this.

yarra