For six years I have been a funk. Looking for answers and seeking the truth. Because of the funk I started to remember one of my past lives and the person I was in that life. It has brought me strength and enlightenment in some areas of life I would never of imagine.

Because of my funk I tend to get really depress and see the world as a place I don't want to be, but when I look back at my former self I see the fighter that I was. I miss being her, in her body I went through a lot. But my decisions have always lead me on the right part. When I learned about Karma and reincarnation a decade or more so ago, I was only ten at the time, so that was 14 years ago. I said yes, Karma and yes reincarnation. I filled my head into understand about them both.

When my memories started to flood my head I realize my ten year old self was right. I have done something really wrong, but is it the reason why I am in my funk I don't know. I grew up in an abusive home where every thing is my fault. I have good parents, but not loving. I wish my soul thought twice when I took this form. To all those that are curious, when it our time to born we choose our bodies, our parents, we choose the life we are about to take because it what we are drawn too. I was drawn to my mortal mother, because she was in her late 30's not married, crying and praying for a husband. So I gave her me, she meet my father and I was born.There marriage isn't great because they are always fighting. I believe marriage and mother wasn't for my mortal mother or father. They always act like the victim. I sorry I joined the both of them. If I had a chance again I wouldn't of done that. As I look back at that decision I wonder if I made the right choice. I think not, because being their daughter has never allowed me to follow the wishes of my heart.

Anyway, as a spirit, I have proof that God exist and one truth he has a destiny for you in all manner of thoughts and beliefs. One should not practice things that will make you feel ashame in his eyes. The reason I am in my funk, was because I didn't listen to the God of my heart. I listen to the quest of my soul wanting to know who I am.

Sometimes you must obey God of your heart and beyond the quest of your soul. Although at when the God of your heart and the quest of your soul are the same, they usually want to evolve your soul to a higher form. My advice for those that are like the old me, who only wants to listen to the quest of their soul and not the God of their heart, is that make sure the God of Heart coincides with the quest of your heart. Don't make the decision to follow something that God won't approve off when you do, you really pay for it. Allow the God of your heart to have full rein over the quest of your soul once they do success will always be there.

Bye