I dont know whats wrong with me, but I think I need someone's help...To help me shift into the newer energy. I am feeling more and more removed and that cannot possibly be a good thing.I heard aligning the body's magnetic field would grant us perfect health, but I feel I need to talk to someone. Hoping I can draw in the right person. I will check this to see if I can find anyone. People are telling me different types of prayer to try, but my mind just keeps wandering.Would praying as if I have already been healed work? I have been trying it, and Im seeing the numbers again. I am hoping today has just been a rough day. In the face of this I am trying not to feel worried. I remember something about this month we may feel empty..we are surely releasing a lot of old, but I feel like I dont have much more in me TO release.

I was putting up shields of protection, all around my aura, and a rainbow energy, technicolour, golden, automatically started flowing in through my crown. It was beautiful.

Violet flame has been given, but I feel so ill now that it's gone. . . Almost hollowed and empty. I know it's not true.

Im not sure what to think/do.
I really just want to be like everyone else.
But I'm crippled with ill health at the moment.

I know its ultimately up to me to be happy/heal me...But I guess I am seeking a calm, mature person to talk me through, someone that won't be drained by my paranoia and worrying...I want to stay on Earth and heal others, and see what is coming up. At this rate I feel like I can barely move, don't want to get out of bed. What's happening? I am hoping I just need to be patient.
Don't worry about me, I'll be okay :)
I am just looking for a teacher/healer willing to take the time to work with me.