after the major energetic disruption of early september, the meditations & daily reading have truly astonished me in their effects. as i have continued, i've felt a greater & deeper stillness than ever before. i feel an inner radiance & peace that astonished me given that i'm surrounded by people who are in a stage of great anger, criticism, & insatisfaction. i feel like i'm sitting in the bottom of a still, clear pool, breathing deeply while the storm & waves whip the surface. i hear the answers i need to hear & am feeling people's energy signatures still, but without having it bother me like in years past. amazing.

THANK YOU.

i thought about the musical door codes i memorized in my dreams in order to escape the prison...it dawned on me that music is one of my personal keys to raising my own vibration. although i dj-ed for many years, i've failed to be moved by much of the newer music. suddenly i encountered some new, some old...lyrics would just pop into my head of songs i haven't listened to for years. i started turning music on to cook & am spending more time dancing with my daughter, who is delighted! it works.

the other day i started doing my walking meditation when the thought popped into my head, 'don't stop doing meditation, but stop doing it right now & listen to the songs you want to hear. they boost your vibration & maintaining this heightened emotional state IS a form of meditation...in fact, it is the goal of all meditations' WHOA. interesting...i did it & i didn't feel guilty- i felt great!

likewise, i see & am thankful to all the people who have formed synchronicities in my life. even if they aren't people who would like anything written on the lightworker page. i had thought to buy some vitamins to boost up my body systems after all this energetic craziness & suddenly my mom sends me a package of vitamin & mineral-enhanced, immunity boosting powder to add to my drinks. and that's just one example.

THANK YOU.

lately, when i walk around, seeing the glow around people, animals, trees ... i cannot help but be amazed by it all.

THANK YOU.

even when confronted by people around me who are always very negative & critical in their conversation...i can see in them the desire for integrity and truth...just often misdirected in useless channels or concentrated on only one aspect(usually the negative) to the point of being pedantic. i've been surrounded by heavily critical people my whole life & it used to really bother me, being a real damper on my vibe. i have no problem with 'the truth' but criticism is often one-sided truth. very rarely do people who criticize everything, constantly speak up about 'the good side'. if you're going to 'tell it like it is', well then you should include the good with the bad...because that's how it is. authentically compliment people as often as you feel compelled to share a truth that may be unwelcome.

i remember i shared the concept of 'useless truth' with my MIL, who often had the habit of telling people when their hair looked 'awful' or they looked terrible, etc. basically, i explained that most people have a mirror in their house & do actually stare into thus rendering her truth services useless. also, if you are pointing out something that someone cannot do anything about, it's just going to make them feel bad. she was truly astonished as she thought her comments were helpful & needed. this is usually the perception of highly critical people. they seem to think we are all in need of good dose of truth to set us in the right direction. if they don't speak up, we will all be misguided & look awful, i suppose. well, how very thoughtful of them, hahaha!!

but aren't we all masters? are we helping people or are we being a self-appointed critic of their pre-planned journey? did we agree beforehand to exchange energies? we can usually tell when we're going to have an energy exchange with people because their energy signature usually feels 'sticky'...well, at least that what it feels like to me! but there are ways to unstick oneself.

now i'm not saying protesting, questioning & inspiring people to use discernment is BAD...for one, that would be highly hypocritical, hehehe! but there has to be balance. there has to be intuition instead of blind allegiance to preconcieved ideas and fears. there has to be compassion. realize the effect of your spoken & written words, because they do have an effect. we need to use the heart & not just rely on rigid mental fixations. hmm, now let's see how many people are gonna write to me, believing that i'm talking about suppressing free speech, HA!

when i hear critical people in life, i try to see their essence...that what is driving most critical people is a desire for truth & honesty, a clarity of vision that is often bogged down in trivialities. oftentimes it reveals an inner sense of disempowerment, as with my grandma & MIL. they were told early on to be quiet, to respect, to submit...& now they seem to feel powerful when criticizing!

however, i remind myself that it's sometimes necessary to place conversational boundaries when it's just a negative, judgemental spiral that i don't wish to be a part of ...and/or stand up for yourself when their 'truth' is useless & hurtful. i used to just tell them that their desire to help has only made me feel bad. it's always worked. nowadays it doesn't really make an important dent in my vibe. :)

THANK YOU.

namaste