Where was creation when life threw the pain and hurt at me at such a young age

I was abandoned by creation, and I have carried this anger for being abandoned by creation a long time. In some way I have managed to attache physical emotions to something that is non physical

How can the creator abandon me, when I am in essence, a part of the Creator?

When I was going through what I was going through the Creator was there along side me, experiencing every bit of the pain to its full intensity.

I think its time to let go of the physical pain, the fear of abandonment from the Creator since the Creator never did abandoned me, but rather experienced life within me

If I am going to allow myself to experience these experiences then Creation is going to be there right with me experiencing them with me to their full intensity.

There is no abandonment here, there is only the belief of abandonment, there is only a belief that isolation can stop the rejection

There is a flow that moves through me that can not abandon me; it is a flow that makes me eternal, and the reason why I exist beyond time and space. It is this flow that is me and the Creator all in one.

Now I see that abandonment in reality is a condition created by a belief.